Someone else

[lizzytysh]

Dear Jaked ~

I feel very sad reading your comments, as it appears to me that you really are where it seems you are, awaiting your fate, knowingly now at the decisions and hands of others. Was this your last appeal? With September 20th your date? After 10 years waiting, that's nearly the same as tomorrow. Do you feel afraid? I'm glad to see that you've found faith to support and sustain you, Jaked.

I hope you'll engage in some productive and satisfying conversation here for as long as you're able. Have you read the "Book of Mercy" threads? How did you learn about Leonard? Are you able to listen to any of his music from your computer? If you've settled on one, what is your favourite song?


~ Lizzy

[Manna]

Jaked,
Good to meet you. I have lost interest in judging your actions. I was wondering if you'd be willing to tell your story or stories. Not necessarily about what got you where you are now, unless that's what you most want to tell, just stories from your life. What is your earliest memory? How old are you? How did you come to Leonard? First / best girlfriend? Do you have children? What made you come here? I've never known anyone in your position, and maybe I can learn something in this exchange.

I know we're all hiding on the opposite sides of our hopeless little screens, so maybe you are faking, but you haven't been silly enough for me to not take you seriously. It looks like someday too soon I'll be saying something I never expected to say.

Here's one of my favourite prayers:

relate to me

[lizzytysh]

Hi Jaked ~

Manna's questions are better than mine. I was trying to get started... she has gone the extra mile.


~ Lizzy

[jaked]

Thanks to you friends.
I find myself in a position where I can not answer those questions from Manna without risking the loss of this mode of comunication. Everything I write is monitored.

The songs seems to fit my moods of hope and aspire to a place that is better than here or any place where I have lived.

If i can not hear the music in realty I can hear it in my head and heart. That is suffice.

I have drawn joy from the Book of mercy and the ideas you have posted here. They have traveled to the centre of my being and enligtened me.

Let us live with hope in our hearts and joy.

The night has lifted for me. I am free.

Thank you my friends.

“Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.”
Psalms 30:5

[lizzytysh]

Everything I write is monitored.

I, of course, know that to be true. Violating it to share your information is not worth the loss of your privileges.

Returning to my own questions, then, Jaked... have you heard Leonard's singing of his songs before... to where you can imagine how he would sound with songs you've never heard? His cadence is such that I've found great satisfaction in being able to imagine words on a page, with how he would sound speaking or singing them. If anyone's songs would bring me comfort in your position, they would be those of Leonard. I'm glad you're here.


~ Lizzy

[jaked]

This afternoon, when I was having my rest I woke and there was a blinding light in my room and in the blinding light I saw the savior standing and he had one leg on my bed and one on the floor and there was a light coming from the center of his hand and shining on my face and he said it is not you but the other one who will walk the green miles which is not green but grey because they lie even about that. And his voice was coning out in short bursts like he had been running whoh whoh whoh. I said have you been running and he said i have and he smiled. "You will be the sheperd of my bees " he said. and then he went away and the woman came in and i showed her where his footmark was on the sheet and she said that is a sign you will live for eternaty. And it will it be the other one that has the curtains coming down I said. and she said yes.

And she brought me out to walk in the garden and I saw the bees and I said to them that i was to be their sheperd and they nodded at me and smiled. And the woman said it will be my job to mind them in the hives in the fall and winter and in the spring they will come out and fly over the wall and bring me back honey for the hive. And they were fly over the wall today where it is low and tell everyone that i have survived the night and there will be only day for ever more for me and then they fly into the center of the hive to sleep until the spring. And i said to the last one going in that I would tell my friends here the good news but if I tell you the questions you ask the woman will take the plugs away and I will not be able to tell you that I was lost and have been found by the savior. And I new the Book of Mercy and the Go(o)d book would be my salvation.

And the nigt has ended and the day is coming down in light like the light from the savior hand's.
And she said tomorrow she will bring me a sheperd staff to keep the bees in place near the hives because the fall is here.

And you will share my releif and joy my freiends and I thank you for your friendship which has seen me avoid what lay ahead of me.

"The Lord foils the plans of the nations; he thwarts the purposes of the peoples. But the plans of the Lord stand firm forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations. "
Psalm 33:10,11

[lizzytysh]

This sounds like it was a comforting experience for you, Jaked.


~ Lizzy

[jaked]

It was raining today in the garden


I found a dead bee in the flower bed nearest to the front door, right in the center under the roses bush.
The woman said I would not be punish that it was not my fault that the bee was dead.

A continual dropping in a very rainy day and a contentious woman are alike.
Proverbs Ch. XXVII, v. 15.

[jaked]

Thank you it was a comfort and a great releif to know the savior has been to see me.

And thank you to you and Manna who came like freinds from heaven.

We took sweet counsel together, and walked unto the house of God in company.
Psalms Ch. LV, v. 14

[lizzytysh]

Hi Jaked ~

The bees are also being sieged by a virus, so the one you found dead may be so as a result of that.

Yes... a visit such as the one you described would be an incomparable comfort. I'm glad to read that you had one.

I'm also glad that you appreciate Manna's and my communication with you.


~ Lizzy