The Final Nerve
I guess its time for me to throw you out my mind
It’s time to move on through another door
It’s hard for me to come to terms
With the parting of our souls
I guess I’ll try to pick myself up off the floor
My world is spinning round
I feel like a clown
I’ve seen your face a thousand times before
Each one is different
From the others that you wore
There’s a frown that drags me down
It’s always when your haunting memory comes around
It’s always then
That I can’t take no more
As time passes slower than a river running dry
I will not take any more than what I deserve
So I’ll strip my soul to the final nerve
The Final Nerve
What was intended Lizzy was meant both ways. I'm hurting right into my soul but rather than blame anyone else, I chose to strip myself right down and take a look. It can be a metaphor, of course we have all had people or things that get "on our nerves'. And the body has them.
Thanks for the reply, this poem is one that came out of a real situation. I wrote it in the middle of the night whilst almost drunk. I then forgot about it. My friend found the hand written poem, typed it out and stuck it on the fridge. When I saw the poem the next day I asked my friend about it, I said that was just how I was feeling. He said he knew that because he knew I'd written the poem. It was just after I split from a woman who had chose drugs over myself. I felt worthless and deserved very little of anything. I blamed myself for the addiction.
It still conjures troubled feelings for me.
Hope this helps in your understanding.
Phil
Thanks for the reply, this poem is one that came out of a real situation. I wrote it in the middle of the night whilst almost drunk. I then forgot about it. My friend found the hand written poem, typed it out and stuck it on the fridge. When I saw the poem the next day I asked my friend about it, I said that was just how I was feeling. He said he knew that because he knew I'd written the poem. It was just after I split from a woman who had chose drugs over myself. I felt worthless and deserved very little of anything. I blamed myself for the addiction.
It still conjures troubled feelings for me.
Hope this helps in your understanding.
Phil
Hi Phil ~
Thanks for clarifying that. I had a response nearly ready for Send and my computer froze. It better get all the freezing done that it wants to before next Saturday, as the thaw man will be coming to fix it. So there.
Anyway, I'll try again. It's good that you got these feelings out and onto paper, and even better that you still have them for examination and reminder. What's not so good is the self-blame that you took on with this situation, and the blow to your self-esteem from a situation that had nothing to do with you. Such is the beast of addiction.
Not meaning to fast forward to a "solution for you" [for one thing, it's not a solution], but I'm going to end up saying it anyway, so might as well now. I get the sense that this was at least a bit in the past. Even so, I seriously and sincerely would suggest that you attend an Al-Anon meeting ~ for several reasons. You'll be amazed at how much you'll relate to and how much it will help you make sense of this situation. It will help you make that necessary detachment from this woman's addiction. Especially since you say it still troubles you, somewhat. It can also be extremely helpful to learn how to recognize some of the red flags of situations that could put you in this emotionally vulnerable state, again, where you might end up, again, unnecessarily beating yourself up over them.
~ Lizzy
Thanks for clarifying that. I had a response nearly ready for Send and my computer froze. It better get all the freezing done that it wants to before next Saturday, as the thaw man will be coming to fix it. So there.
Anyway, I'll try again. It's good that you got these feelings out and onto paper, and even better that you still have them for examination and reminder. What's not so good is the self-blame that you took on with this situation, and the blow to your self-esteem from a situation that had nothing to do with you. Such is the beast of addiction.
Not meaning to fast forward to a "solution for you" [for one thing, it's not a solution], but I'm going to end up saying it anyway, so might as well now. I get the sense that this was at least a bit in the past. Even so, I seriously and sincerely would suggest that you attend an Al-Anon meeting ~ for several reasons. You'll be amazed at how much you'll relate to and how much it will help you make sense of this situation. It will help you make that necessary detachment from this woman's addiction. Especially since you say it still troubles you, somewhat. It can also be extremely helpful to learn how to recognize some of the red flags of situations that could put you in this emotionally vulnerable state, again, where you might end up, again, unnecessarily beating yourself up over them.
~ Lizzy