the tally
interesting i think
why should i bother
just go see a shrink
and blame all on father
he wasnt around,i'd say
he left when i was one
they'd beat me when we'd "play"
and nothing was done
i learned the hard way
everything under the sun
now i live in self-pity
im comfortable in that city
no!yes and no
i can "gain from the pain"
not deny the black eye
so now i make a tally
of whats gone rightly awry
there was this 'n that
being chased with a bat
but the worst was the betrail
that left me scarred and frail
i divorced the idea
that i could ever again be open
i withdrew from those who knew
i liked the darkness,still do
but i moved on from there
i learned not to care
became rather insensitive
and built another layer
to my defenses and my scare
but now,things seem bright
as you'll see from my"moonlight"*
yet i still need to heal
these scabs i've learned to peel
and the pain rears its ugly head
sometimes,before i put me to bed
and i try to find the me
and my dad,well
we are on good terms
we speak and i visit,
and he tells me this and the other
over coffe and my horoscope
i wear not the chip
with which i 've grown up
yet its there,no deny
but i dont have time to cry
elazar *moonlight,see somethings that may be,poetry forum
why should i bother
just go see a shrink
and blame all on father
he wasnt around,i'd say
he left when i was one
they'd beat me when we'd "play"
and nothing was done
i learned the hard way
everything under the sun
now i live in self-pity
im comfortable in that city
no!yes and no
i can "gain from the pain"
not deny the black eye
so now i make a tally
of whats gone rightly awry
there was this 'n that
being chased with a bat
but the worst was the betrail
that left me scarred and frail
i divorced the idea
that i could ever again be open
i withdrew from those who knew
i liked the darkness,still do
but i moved on from there
i learned not to care
became rather insensitive
and built another layer
to my defenses and my scare
but now,things seem bright
as you'll see from my"moonlight"*
yet i still need to heal
these scabs i've learned to peel
and the pain rears its ugly head
sometimes,before i put me to bed
and i try to find the me
and my dad,well
we are on good terms
we speak and i visit,
and he tells me this and the other
over coffe and my horoscope
i wear not the chip
with which i 've grown up
yet its there,no deny
but i dont have time to cry
elazar *moonlight,see somethings that may be,poetry forum
breathe deep and live
