Daddy's Little Princess.

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. I suppose you're heading back, or are at home by now, after all the exciting festivities celebrating and honoring you in Spain.

.. I know for me, it's good somehow to get back home after certain events.. to get back to where things are comfortable in their dailiness.. and to where you can get back to doing work.

.. having said that, there still lingers this sense of you in Spain, and all that went on there. It has cast rather a pleasant spell.. although I'd add that I've been missing you pretty badly today.

It's actually very cool outside, and I guess I decided to forego my bike ride, so to get a bit more done, work wise. I keep going on research tangents, which I don’t want to have happen, but they do, nevertheless. This is some of the trippiest material I think I’ve ever tried to wrangle into something, and so.. well, it makes its own demands, it seems.

.. okay.. oh. The link below is for another Bill Evans song titled A Child is Born.. and while it has a melancholy to it, I guess I was drawn to its rather optimistic title.

.. actually, I looked a bit at Bill Evan’s bio recently, and was saddened to read of his heroin addiction, which he overcame only to succumb to a cocaine addiction after that.. and so it was that he died much too soon. I'd also watched an interview with him—it was with his brother, who was a music professor—but it was great hearing Bill speak about his perspectives on jazz. Actually, one of the things he spoke of reminded me of what I’d learned about acting, which makes perfect sense, especially as they both use the term “improvisation”.. but, basically, it's to know your craft to the point where you can forget about it. Of course, I guess all art aspires to that. What I didn't realize though was how much jazz was indebted to classical music, with improvisation having its roots there—I can't say that's anything I've ever heard about before.

.. alright, my love. You've touched all of our hearts here, and quite a few in Spain, and no doubt world-wide as well these past few days..

.. and even as you have me feeling rather humbled, I send my love.. and my tenderest kiss to you.. x.. (and yes, I miss you)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SUblEgQ1 ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x .. xx x x.. xx x.. x x..

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. I hope this little note finds you well.. [here's a little kiss towards that.. x]..

.. actually, I'm done for the day with all the weirdness I'm writing about. It's rather dense material, which may account for my difficulty in getting through this part.. but I am getting there.. finally.

[sigh]

.. actually, lately, when I'm not writing, or reading, or riding my bike.. I find that I'm singing. I find it relaxing, actually. You see, in the city I always felt a bit self conscious, since the artist I was renting my studio to next door could hear me if I sang in the daytime.. so.. it sort of put a damper on things.

.. so, anyway, I decided I'd put together a set list that I think complements my singing voice--with some of the songs being the old standards I'd already memorized from childhood.. [Vaughan's arrangements, even, as I think I've mentioned before].. but, what I love about youtube is you can sample so many different arrangements of the same song--it's just so amazingly great for that. Anyway, if I feel I have a good number of them that I think I can sing well, then I

[I'm actually afraid even to utter this]

.. but, yes, I may see if I can conquer my stage fright, and try singing at a club in the city--probably on a Monday night sort-of-thing.

.. the thing is, I really do have a good singing voice, and so, maybe I could make a few ducats doing that--if it worked out, I mean.. and, well, it's something I could actually enjoy.. if I can get past the nervousness part, that is.

[actually, I just thought of that Diane Keaton bit I posted from Annie Hall.. you know, the one with everyone being obnoxiously loud, and ignoring her, and all the feedback from the lousy mic 'n stuff]

.. anyway, I'm only telling you this. [my angel] Actually, I'm barely able to admit this even to myself--I mean, that I might really and truly be trying this. But, I mean.. not everyone has a, uh, "golden voice".. [as you well know, my love].. so, you and I are just lucky, I guess. [!!]

.. so.. just another little confession I thought I'd make to you. I don't know if I'm dreaming yet, or what with this.. but.. I guess I'll find out.

[sigh]

.. anyway, it's not my main focus, which of course is my constant daydreaming about you--uh, I mean, my writing. My writing. (my love)

.. okay.. speaking of nice Vaughan arrangements.. [though it's not a song I'm well acquainted with].. but first, another little kiss to you, my love.. x.. (I adore you)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rOGOxFC ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. x x xx.. x x x.. xx..

[Violet]

.. my love, I’m extremely tired, which is somehow making me rather blue—or should I say black? [in reference to Amy Winehouse, as per below].. In any case, I do think I did some good writing today, in spite of my overall tiredness.

.. I’m still very drawn to “writing you” as Agent Longing, and to the plight of him and his beloved Violet, and so this remains a good thing. That’s actually why I decided to keep with this, since I felt so drawn to them both—to you, especially, and my conception of you as this figure.. as well as to my exploring themes I’d looked into in the past, and that I always thought I might in some fashion return to. Of course, it’s gotten far more complex, maybe, than I’d first imagined, as it involves a network of facts that are not all that easy to keep track of. Still, I like how the two characters relate to each other, actually.. I find it funny, and endearing, and.. I don’t know, it just somehow works for me, and so I'm hoping readers will feel the same way.

.. anyway, I honestly can't wait to get out of this section of it, and I'm hoping the rest of my tale will be far less mind-melding to do—or, at least I hope it will come along a lot faster.

.. oh, actually.. [need to insert this Strip stuff]..


A FURTHER NOTE ON STRIPPING THIS WINEHOUSE BUSINESS

.. I've been keeping in mind the date October 26th with regard to Amy Winehouse, as originally I read that this would be the date when the inquest concerning her death would commence. Now I'm reading it's actually the date when the inquest would reveal its results, which makes a lot more sense.. but then "sense" is not necessarily the word I'd use to characterize much of the coverage or lack thereof concerning this case.

.. anyway, Amy Winehouse is especially on my mind as mention of her death has now come up in my story as well.

.. I know when I first saw her perform—her Grammy performance of a couple of years back, which had to be sent in via satellite due to past drug charges that barred her from entering the country—but I remember immediately thinking that she was a creative force to be reckoned with, even while feeling, too, that she had the sort of reckless edge that can backfire on one. [later note: I'm just thinking that with some artists there's the spectacle of "blood sport" at work, which speaks perhaps even more to the culture than the artist]

.. in any event, I do appreciate her indebtedness to blues, to Sarah.. Motown.. a lot of the music I feel close to. Of course, it was no doubt her hip-hop inspired delivery and attitude that made her music the massive success that it was.

.. anyway, I thought I'd post something of hers, as she's been on my mind. This music video in particular is quite well done, I find.

.. Leonard, my love.. I'm missing you, and send this little good-night kiss.. x.. (and maybe a few more.. xx x.. xx..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TJAfLE39ZZ8&ob=av2e
FULL SCREEN..

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. are you still going to buy me a chocolate ice cream cone when I'm finished writing this thing??.. [I'm pretty sure that's what you promised] [pretty sure]

[sigh]

.. what else..

.. nothing, really. I mean, it’s painstaking work, but I’m working hard every day. That’s all I can I say. Yes, occasionally I suddenly find myself passionately kissing you in my mind, and so I have to snap myself out of it—but, yeah.. other than that, it’s painstaking work that’s gradually getting there, with all the maddening detail that this sort of material—or the case I’m trying to make with it—requires.. so..

[another sigh]

.. okay, what else—oh. [just remembered] Now, I hope you realize, my love, that since you let the proverbial cat outa' the bag in your speech in Oviedo, musicians around the world are now going to stop everything, buy themselves a Conde guitar, learn those six chords, and start writing songs in that vein. I mean, I’m going to do that myself [as soon as I have the extra ducats, that is] and I don’t even consider myself a musician. [!!]

.. okay, what else.



.. oh, I need to do another one of these, my angel... (if you’d just hang in there a moment):


EVEN MORE STRIPPING NEEDED ON THIS WHOLE WINEHOUSE BIZ

.. okay, so I thought to see if anything was up yet on the inquest, and it seems that Scotland Yard.. uh.. sent documents pertaining to the inquest to the WRONG address. [??????????]

.. yeah..

IMPORTANT CONFIDENTIAL DOCS
RE: INQUEST INTO CAUSE OF DEATH
OF MEGA-MEGA FAMOUS MUSIC ICON
C/O: Mr. and Mrs. Wrong Address
3278 Wrong Address Lane
London, U.K. [at least they got this part right]

.. yes, it seems they were SUPPOSED to be sent to the family, but INSTEAD they were sent to—who knows? They were sent to SOMEONE. But not the family. Oh, but then they WERE turned into the police—by said “who knows?” person. Oh, and apparently this incident was reported to the Sunday Mirror over the weekend—a paper, I’m guessing, that’s on the “tabloid-ish” side.. [since that seems to be who is handling the Winehouse case: the London tabloids] [seems like]

.. now, according to the Telegraph [on line], no arrests were made concerning this mishap.. and an “internal police inquiry has now been launched.”

.. so.. there you have it. The lead up to this long awaited inquest result date [there's got to be a better way of describing that] includes a lot of bungling—oh, because, as we all know, the folks at Scotland Yard wouldn’t know how to get highly important documents of an extremely sensitive nature from one place to another without making a mess of things. [and I thought Monty Python was some manner of parody] [it just goes to show that you really have to live in a culture to understand just what is meant as humor, and what is playing it straight]

Now, what any of this has to do with the results as per the inquest tomorrow, October 26th……… not sure. The Telegraph forgot to mention that part.

.. actually, I just looked at the Guardian [on line], and can’t say they were any more helpful.

.. so.. I guess we’ll see what tomorrow brings on this whole mess.


.. Leonard, my love.. I'm looking forward to that ice cream cone. In the meantime.. here, again, is my little kiss to you.. x.. (and I do hope all is well).. (and yes, I miss you)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=9FiQnrRT16s
FULL SCREEN..

.. x x x.. xx x x.. x xx.. xx x..

later edit: I'm back here early this morning, and straightened out a line that now is clearer I think.

[Violet]

STRIPPING THIS WINEHOUSE BUSINESS.. CONTINUED


.. okay, according to the BBC [on line] today:

Amy Winehouse death: Coroner records misadventure verdict

Winehouse had hits with Rehab and Back to Black

Amy Winehouse's death was the result of the singer drinking too much alcohol, a coroner has said.

A verdict of misadventure was recorded into the 27-year-old's death after an inquest heard she was more than five times the drink-drive limit.

Winehouse was found dead at her home in Camden, north London, on 23 July.

St Pancras coroner Suzanne Greenway said the "unintended consequence" of Winehouse drinking so much alcohol was her "sudden and unexpected death".

Three empty vodka bottles, two large and one small, were found at her flat, St Pancras Coroners Court heard.

Found by guard

The inquest heard the singer had 416mg of alcohol per 100ml of blood. The legal drink-drive limit is 80mg.

The coroner said: "She had consumed sufficient alcohol at 416mg per decilitre (of blood) and the unintended consequence of such potentially fatal levels was her sudden and unexpected death."

Toxicology tests had showed "no illegal substances" were present in her body at the time of death.

Winehouse had not had a drink in the three weeks to 22 July, the court heard.

Amy Winehouse's father was at the inquest

The inquest was told she was found in her bed by live-in guard Andrew Morris, who looked in on her at 10:00 BST, but thought she was asleep.

He alerted emergency services when he checked on her again at 15:00 and she had not moved.

A post-mortem examination proved inconclusive but later toxicology tests found there were "no illegal substances" in her body at the time of her death.

On Monday Scotland Yard admitted a file into her death might have been sent to the wrong address last Friday. It has since been handed in to police.

The material, which contained information relating to the inquest, was meant to be dispatched to the star's family.

Police said inquiries into the matter were being carried out.

Since her death, Winehouse's 2006 album Back to Black has become the UK's bestselling album of the 21st Century.

[emphasis mine] [end BBC quote]

.. okay.. this is the sort of material I expected to see at this point--which, however, brings up how officials might explain the fact that such results could EASILY have been determined once the toxicology testing was completed, given the high margin of alcohol.. so.. I don't understand the hold up with this. On the other hand: dying of alcohol poisoning??.. and at the young age of twenty-seven??.. But, yes, this is what we are being asked to believe.

.. oh, and to originally term this as "some alcohol was present" seems misleading. [as per the first information released on the toxicology results, I mean] I mean, the ONLY reason they had this inquest at all was to DETERMINE the cause of death, and it seems they already had the answer to that. Of course, since, as a rule, there is usually little in the way of any real reporting going on [which might venture to inquire into such inconsistencies], we may never have such questions answered.

ALSO: I don't know about you, but given the guard was SUPPOSED to be looking after this person--this person who was vulnerable to substance abuse--don't you think that his seeing THREE EMPTY BOTTLES OF VODKA might have been a "heads up" that something may have been wrong???? And, I mean, to let FIVE HOURS* pass without checking in on this person.. [who, again, was vulnerable to substance abuse.. and who he was watching DUE to that fact].. and, once again, with empty alcohol bottles lying around--seems highly questionable. But those doing the reporting on this don't seem to think such inconsistencies to be important.. so..

.. as to Scotland Yard sending these docs to the wrong address--oh, excuse me.. as to their "maybe" sending them to the wrong address.. [they want to see if they can wriggle out of this one, I guess].. this mishap also seems suspicious, to say the least. I guess we'll see what the results are of the "internal police investigation," but I'm not holding my breath as to being enlightened any time soon, if ever. [actually, maybe they can pin this screw up on Murdoch somehow]

.. OKAY.. I wasn't going to venture much further into this without any more information than I have at present, but.. just to say.. there always exists at least the possibility that there's some kind of cover-up going on as to the precise circumstances surrounding such high profile persons' demise. [or any person's demise, for that matter] And yes, Scotland Yard could be involved. And yes, they could be being threatened with something highly damning as to these mystery docs, etc.. This is why, in a "free" society [so called] we ALSO like to have this thing known as a "free press".. since that way you stand a chance of finding out stuff that all those hot shot people in power don't want you to find out about. [just thought I'd point that out] [actually, if you'd just read all the sickening material on just these sorts of matters that I'd just read, you'd be highly suspicious too when it comes to such things]

.. okay, back to work.

[my love, I'll be thinking about you].. [xx]


.. and now a little farewell homage to Amy.. [for now]..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMO5Ko_77Hk
FULL SCREEN..


later note: I earlier miscalculated the time frame, which is five hours, not seven, given 15:00 translates to 3 p.m., I believe. This is still a considerable length of time. Also, the original reporting was that it was 4 p.m. as the time the guard returned. [just another inconsistency to this later version of things]

.. oh, also: having checked one of my earlier posts on this [on page 100 of this thread], I also see that the guard had originally said that Winehouse had TOLD him she was going to sleep that day, which is at odds with this later version of things.

[Violet]

STRIP RAVING MAD

.. okay, you know what???

.. this is REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY bugging me now. REALLY bugging me.


COMPLAINT LIST ON THIS WHOLE WINEHOUSE BUSINESS:

1. Just WHERE were those THREE EMPTY BOTTLES OF VODKA the FIRST go around with this???? What--did Mr. Guard person "forget" to mention that part????????

2. Speaking of Mr. Guard Person: you COULDN'T have found her asleep at 10 a.m. since that was the well-documented time SHE CALLED HER HANDLERS the first go around with this. So, she was NOT asleep. Sorry. Try again.

.. uhhhh.. [as per that last note in my last post].. remember what you, Mr. Guard Person, said at that time?? Remember her TELLING you she was going to sleep that day??? Remember that part??.. [seems you forgot]

3. And by the way.. IF.. [the first time around].. there WERE three empty bottles of alcohol in her room.. AND her body was found to have this inordinately high level of alcohol in her blood stream--------WHAT WAS THE BIG MYSTERY THEN???????

.. again, WOULDN'T THAT ABOUT WRAP UP THE CASE---------MONTHS AGO???.. and what about the AUTOPSY???.. can't you determine alcohol poisoning through an autopsy??.. I mean, without having to do toxicology testing, even?? [I just did a quick search, and yes, it seems you can] [I'm going to look into this aspect further]

4. .. and last, but not least, why didn't the toxicology testing itself wrap things up in this regard???.. at which time there was reportedly "some alcohol" in evidence, but no determination as to whether or not this [NOW REVEALED TO BE MASSIVE AMOUNT] may have caused her death??? [???????????????????]

.. remember??.. and then it was decided there needed to be an "inquest?"

5. .. okay, so...................... what happened between THAT point in time, and THIS point in time, such that they now have been "enlightened" as to a cause of death that would have been obvious from the very beginning???????????????


TROUBLING IMPLICATIONS:

.. I just want to say that none of this makes any kind of sense. No way. No how.

.. right now, it's looking like foul play. I certainly can't say what happened, since I haven't enough in the way of facts. However, it's looking like this alcohol poisoning idea may have been "added on" later. Meaning: they made this shit up, after the fact.

.. now, I don't know what these mystery documents have to tell us, but it would be interesting to find out. Of course, I'm doubtful we'll ever really know what's in them.. but it seems likely that if we WERE to actually see what they contain.. [in some pretend version of reality, where you actually learn what's really going on with shit like this].. then I think that might help clear some of this up.


.. Leonard, my love.. I'm actually feeling rather upset with all of this. [in case you hadn't noticed] It's one of those things where the more you mull things over, the less sense any of it seems to make, and it's

.. okay, I have to just chill, and see what develops with this.

[big sigh]

.. anyway, I've been plugging away at things writing-wise today, and I may do more tonight, so I'll say my good-night to you early, my love..

.. I wish I were done at this point, at least with this section of writing.. but.. [another sigh]..

.. okay, my kiss to you, my angel.. x.. I miss you.. I'm frustrated. I miss you. I'm frustrated. Bleh.

[Violet]

STRIPPING THIS WINEHOUSE MESS, CONT'D

.. okay, I'm up early today, and just getting ready to get back to writing, but I thought to add a few more thoughts on this. Before I do, I just took a quick gander at "internet news items past" on this whole Winehouse death business, and found an interesting "mention" in something titled:

"Singer Amy Winehouse found dead aged 27"
by Robin Millard, Agence France-Presse
Posted at 07/24/2011 12:42 AM | Updated as of 07/24/2011 6:26 PM

this, on a site called: ABS-CBNnews.com

okay, the second part of this caught my attention:

Enquiries continue into the circumstances of the death. At this early stage it is being treated as unexplained.

One neighbour reported hearing screaming coming from the house in the early hours of Saturday.

.. okay, this is the FIRST I've heard of this. I honestly haven't spent a lot of time researching this, and even this morning, I just dipped my little toe in, and this is what I found. Odd, though, that this hasn't come up again in any later coverage I've seen.

I wanted to say, too, that my looking into this case a bit has me more appreciative of good criminal detective work. I particularly mean in the sense of what such investigations pretty much need to discount in order to stay focused on the matter at hand, which might very well be foul play. I mean, everyone and his brother is spinning theories as to why Amy Winehouse died.. and a consensus seems to have formed that she shouldn't have stopped drinking cold turkey.. that her "doctor" advised her to cut down slowly.

Okay, there are a few problems with this. First, I might bring up an earlier news item stating that Winehouse had seen her doctor the night before her death, and had received a clean bill of health. This is ANOTHER item that doesn't seem to have come up again in later coverage.

I'd add too, that.. as anyone even vaguely acquainted with REHAB knows.. quitting cold turkey is exactly what you DO do.. in addition to the fact that, while in treatment, you're NOT EVEN ALLOWED to have even one itty bitty drink.

.. but, no.. everyone and his brother is saying otherwise, so.. I guess that's what killed her. [????????]

Also, we're talking about a fairly young woman about whom there's no mention of any major health issues, outside of her substance abuse. From this, one might also deduce that she could probably withstand another drinking binge, and survive it--as probabilities go, I mean.

In any event, NOW we can add to the mix that a neighbor heard screaming coming from Winehouse's house in the early morning on the day of her death. Seems like something that should have been followed up on, and yet, it doesn't look like that happened. Instead, we're left with a bunch of contradictory statements as to what may or may not have happened that day, and the Coroner's verdict of "misadventure," which seems to add insult to injury in a case the handling of which might itself be termed a "misadventure".. [and that's putting it mildly]


.. Leonard, my love.. I guess I shall get to work now. I miss you, and.. well, all I can do is to send you another little kiss.. x.. as well as the hope that all is well with you. Maybe I can find something for you on youtube.. just to get the day going..

[moments later]..

.. actually, this is the "Hathaway" that Amy Winehouse mentions in her song Rehab.. and, actually, due to that fact, he's come up in my story, as well.. (he's another manner of sad story, I'm afraid).. (anyway, I send you another kiss, my love.. x

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ct0VXxB2 ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx xx .. xxxx.. xx..

[Violet]

OCCUPY OAKLAND/WALL STREET

.. I thought I'd briefly catch up with the protests, most especially what happened in Oakland, CA, where the police started shooting rubber bullets and throwing percussion grenades, critically injuring a protestor. OWS described its aftermath this way:

This morning Occupy Oakland and Iraq Veterans Against the War (IVAW) put out a call for occupations across America and around the world to hold solidarity vigils for Scott Olsen, a former Marine and two time Iraq War veteran. Olsen sustained a skull fracture after being shot in the head on October 25 with a police projectile while peacefully participating in an Occupy Oakland march.

I don't know how much mainstream press this is getting, but I assume at least some. In any case, it seems the mayor--a woman by the name of Jean Quan--is now being extremely contrite, given she was so harshly rebuked for sanctioning this.

.. there's a great deal else going on in Oakland, including Occupy Oakland proposing a general strike on November 2nd, whereby students and workers walk out on their schools and jobs, and occupy downtown.


JUST A BIT MORE STRIPPING OF THIS WHOLE WINEHOUSE MESS

.. in light of all I've been writing on this, I just thought I'd posit "a hypothetical" as to at least one aspect of what may in fact have occurred.

.. okay, so.. I've been realizing that, if there is [hypothetically here] foul play involved, and a cover-up.. it could be that the first coroner handling this case might not have.. uh.. might not have wanted to "rubber stamp" whatever "conclusion" it was decided he/she should make.. [if you read me there].. at which point an inquest was decided on, thus removing it from the first coroner's hands. I mean, look at it this way: the alcohol content in the blood didn't change, the coroner did. Now, if there was, in fact, NO alcohol present.. [again, hypothetically speaking, that is].. the first coroner may still have been pressed to go along with the "some" alcohol present scenario, while still not consigning him/herself to any specific conclusion--thus, the "unexplained" status, which left the door open for the heavies to come in and exploit the "some" alcohol present scenario, as per the inquest findings. [even though, to the more discerning of us, this still begs the question as to why the substance of the final verdict on this didn't lead to a speedy conclusion initially]

I certainly can't say I have any specific ideas as to what manner of foul play may have occurred, although the neighbor reporting an early morning "scream" may be a start, in that respect. In any case, so far, I'm not satisfied that we're hearing the facts of this case, whatever they may be. And, of course, there still remains the "mystery documents," which, if they pertain to the inquest, or perhaps the initial coroner's report, including the toxicology test results, might well contain damning evidence if, in fact, such docs don't support the final verdict on this. Just speculating here, but, by any measure, something questionable has gone on with this, and I'm curious to see just how this "mystery doc" issue will be handled. [if it comes up again at all, that is]

.. I'm going to leave things at that, at present.. and maybe do some digging around. It was just so odd that here I was.. researching the 60's Sunset Strip music scene, which launched the music careers of the majority of the "27 Club" members, the deaths of which all leave room for some serious questions, both circumstantially, and with regard to the very strange underpinnings of that entire scene--and THEN to have Amy Winehouse die at 27, with the first reports being disturbingly vague enough to pique my interest.. well, it's just odd, this whole thing.


.. Leonard, my love.. things are coming along writing wise, but it's a challenge--and I still find myself sighing an awful lot. Today seemed extra tough.. it was gloomy and rainy and cold, and.. well, I found myself wanting you pretty bad.. although I was able to write that into the section of dialogue I was working on, so at least it went to good use (!).. still.. it's not always easy, such things.. (as I think you know)

.. okay, my angel.. tomorrow is Gotham, and there's supposed to be some sun.. so.. I'm hoping to have a good day. I'll be thinking of you, my love.. x.. and

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WohZm1Gs ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx x x.. xx x..

[Violet]

.. my beloved.. it was a nice sunny day in Gotham town, and I was kind of wishing I wasn't so far away these days. It's the fall, and there's a lot of stuff to do.. and

[sigh]

oh, as to that last Winehouse cover I posted..

.. okay, so, in the back of my mind I was thinking.. hmm.. I remember finding out recently that that rather lovely song was written by someone that surprised me--I mean, I was surprised that this particular person wrote it. Only, I just couldn't remember who it was. It was really bothering me too.. but, then I thought: what the hell, I'll post it anyway. [I guess I could have looked it up].. Anyway, this morning, it suddenly hit me: it was Phil Spector (!)

.. oh, also on the music front: I found a jazz club [on line] that does this open mic sort of thing one night a week, and I thought I might check it out.. possibly even next week. I have no plans to perform yet, I just wanted to see what the place is like. There seems to be very few jazz clubs with an open mic, so the choices are limited on that front.

.. I realized, though.. [as I contemplated doing this].. how there's got to be a lot of--well, let's face it, very talented black women [in particular] with wonderfully rich and powerful voices who sing at such clubs, and it did make me think twice. I mean, I may be able to follow Sarah in some of her more complex arrangements, but that doesn't make me a powerhouse. Then again, there would no doubt be a lousy mic there with all that feedback [like in that Diane Keaton scene in Annie Hall], and so, who will even hear me, anyway, with all that commotion going on??? [she says, hopefully]

.. anyway, I guess I shouldn't worry who I might be up against. Or, no, I think I should just block that from my consciousness entirely. [if I'm going to do this, I mean]

.. anyway, I was thinking today that if I can get to what I love so much about these old standards, and allow myself to just have fun with it, then I should be alright. [she again says hopefully]

.. okay, well, it's late, and so I won't stay here long.. oh, but, in the city today I was reading a print-out of this last [blasted] section of my story, and I thought it was getting there.. so, all seems to be moving forward in Violet Land.

.. okay, my beloved.. once again, I send my little kiss to you.. x.. I miss you.. (as this song suggests).. (oh, and I'm pretty sure Phil didn't write this one) (pretty sure).. (oh, and as you may recall, this is the one Diane--or, should I say, Annie--was having such a difficult time with in Annie Hall, although here it's performed without the same manner of interference, and with some truly wonderful accompaniment).. (just for you).. (my love)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LwdC58OF ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx x xx.. x x x x xx..

[Violet]

.. my love, the power is out, there's over a foot of snow outside, and thus the blackberry.

(sigh)

I have to see if I can find a match, since I'm realizing this candle isn't much good without one.

.. you know, my love, if I summon the courage to sing at this supper club (I found out it was), I'll be singing all to you.. (in my mind, I mean)..

.. I'm afraid I can't stay here much longer, given how awkward it is still trying to write on this thing. I want you so very much... x

I miss you.

[Violet]

.. um.. my love.. I just listened to you singing As Time Goes By on some obscure live recording or other.. so

I really may as well call it a day, then. I may as well just go out in that winter wonderland out there.. [at least, the power came on again, angel].. and I may as well bury myself out there. Wait ‘til spring, maybe. Wait ‘til my beloved Bogey—who, I always thought was you, only maybe I was a bit unsure ‘til now.. I mean, my Chinatownshire material started with that premise, after all.. so.. I guess things have come full circle, then.. (my wonderful, sexy.. too desirable.. specimen of manhood, and all that goes—

[a sigh is just a sigh]

[I’m listening to you “play it again” right now, in fact] [intimately, right in my earphones]

.. the fundamental things apply.. as

.. you know what??.. I’ve just decided I’m going to learn that song just for you, my love. All for you. And maybe some day.. (as time goes by, I mean).. I’ll

I mean, because.. well, as you just said:

and when two lovers woo, they still say I love you.. on this you can rely..

no matter what the future brings, as time goes by..

[oh, and then this part]:

.. hearts filled with passion.. jealousy and hate.. woman needs man, and man must have his mate.. even you can’t deny.

It’s still the same old story.. a fight for love and glory.. a case of do or die..

.. the world will always welcome lovers..

.. as.. time.. goes.. by.

[where did you sing that, my love?.. some intimate yet lively little night club, it sounds like.. where all there were having just the very best time]

In any event, I’m dead now. You've just killed me, my love. I have to go take a shower, I think. Then I’ll go and bury myself in the snow, and wait ‘til spring. Of course, I’ll have Agent Longing and Violet figure out a way to save the world by then. [a case of do or die] And so, I’ll be ready.

.. yes, come spring time. I can see that now. I was thinking it could be sooner, but now I'm realizing that, with all this snow 'n all, it will have to be spring.

.. I love you.. (more and more, my love).. x.. (as time goes by)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYoet7-q ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx x x.. xxx x.. xx..

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. I've taken my last poem back so I might think about it more, although there was something about it I liked. Still, I always tell myself not to write a poem and post it right away, since it's hard to know what one has written, even.. and yet, still I find myself doing it anyway.

.. still, the feelings it conveyed remain--I guess as concerns the deeper dimension of love, what it potentially taps into.

.. anyway, all is fairly quiet up here in this snowy lake region on Halloween. I'm missing you, and I guess I'm feeling a bit low--far more than I'm willing to say, even.

.. oh--but I did get the lyrics for As Time Goes By, and was singing it yesterday. I love the song, and think it would be great fun to sing, but I see I need to practice it, as the last words of many of the lines demand a certain power and steadiness of voice that can easily lose "surety," I guess I'll call it, depending on how tired I feel. I guess I do realize that if I'm going to try this singing thing, I'd better be able to get through these numbers even if I'm having an "off" night.. even if I'm tired, I mean.. and that's the challenge of it for me. I mean, it's one thing to sing around the house, and quite another to be "on" for an audience, as scheduled. [let alone mastering the nervousness part]

Oh, also: I checked out youtube to see if there were any tips for strengthening one's voice, and it seems the kind of breathing exercises that enhance one's strength of voice coincides with the breathing exercises I was going to do to relax.. (you know, given my nocturnal "grinding my teeth" problem).. so, it looks like I might kill two birds with one stone, then (!)

[always good when that happens]

.. okay, well.. I guess I need sleep.. and I hope tomorrow will be a good writing day, as today I lacked focus, and got little done.

.. anyway, I'm sad, my love.. but send, still, my little kiss to you.. x.. (I do hope it finds you well)

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. it's been quite a day. It started when I awoke before dawn, feeling this tremendous heaviness in my chest--this combined with a sense of sheer panic, since I was being inundated by just the worst sense of doom and gloom imaginable. I was feeling that all was lost, and all I could do was to--in my head, that is--try to convince myself that things couldn't possibly be as bad as I felt they were in that moment.. that surely I couldn't have gone through everything I've gone through in my life just to come to--well, to this place of total defeat. I actually had to go over this "script" I was using on myself several times, since the doom and gloom I was feeling was not lifting.. and actually, for a time, things were just seeming worse and worse.

.. so, then I decided to get up--before it was even light out.. and I wrote you a letter, and.. I don't know, I just couldn't post it somehow, as I was just so down when writing it. So, I started my day, and fixed some tea.. and I started working on the writing, which I was rather liking as I was reading it.. and, I don't know, during the course of the day I started to feel dramatically better for some reason. I even went to our lake, after not having been there for a while, due to all the snow. But today there was sun--a near white sun blazing through the clouds.. and the lake was at once dark seeming--as it was partly shaded by the opposite shoreline--and it was brightly glistening as well, with both these things seeming somehow appropriate to the sort of day I'd been having.

.. and so, here I am now, my love. I'm tired from lack of sleep, and so I guess I'm again feeling a bit sad about things. Anyway, it still seems to be a kind of trial I'm going through right now. The good part of it is that the only solution is to work hard, and try to remain cheerful, even.. not in a fake sense.. but in that it's the best disposition to have, even when a part of you is feeling that all is lost, somehow..

.. oh, I listened again to your rendition of As Time Goes By, since I wanted to pay more attention to the choices you made in how you sung it.. and.. well, yes, your audience that night were all laughing, no doubt because of the unlikelihood of your singing that number.. and yet, the more I think about it, the more sense it makes to me that you would sing that song.. not merely as a lark, I mean.

.. okay, my love.. I send again my little kiss to you.. x.. and my continued hope that all will be well.

[Violet]

OCCUPY OAKLAND/WALL STREET

.. as planned for November 2nd, and as per the Occupy Oakland website:

Huge, enthusiastic, crowds are swirling through downtown Oakland. Police are staying away. All downtown banks have shut down. Come on down, it’s beautiful.

.. also, Angela Davis was there, and has spoken at OWS as well. [just thought I'd mention]

.. as for OWS [Occupy Wall Street], it seems veterans have now officially joined the movement. I heard on line one Iraqi War vet speaking, and it was terribly sad and moving. Current U.S. vets have the highest suicide rate over all other veterans, and, as has been true for a long time now, veterans comprise a major portion if not the majority of the homeless in this country, with the veteran who spoke being no exception.


.. Leonard, my beloved.. how are you?.. I won't stay here long, I don't think, as I'm plum tuckered from too little sleep these past two nights.

.. as for my writing and research.. I am proud to say that I finally got the Monkees straight. I'd been thinking that Peter Tork was Michael Nesmith for a while now. I remember I wasn't thinking too highly of Peter Tork, I think.. [thinking he was Michael Nesmith].. and yet now I have to check again: I'm pretty sure now that it's Michael Nesmith that maybe I'm having some "issues" with. [pretty sure] [don’t quote me on that]

[so glad to get that all straightened out]

.. oh, and last, but not least.. I was using As Time Goes By to practice singing today—something I've been doing more of lately, and which I’m finding cheers me up.

.. anyway, since I was rather tired from not enough sleep, I thought it was a good time to practice, since it’s far more difficult to be in good voice. Of course, some songs—even some of the Vaughn renditions I’ve known since childhood—are easier for my voice than others.. the latter including As Time Goes By, I'm afraid. Still, I sort of love singing it anyway. It’s the type of song that, for my voice, at least, I can really just throw myself into full throttle, and yet, it sounds like it should sound. [if that makes any sense] I mean, those lines: "hearts full of passion, jealousy and hate".. or "a fight for love and glory, a case of do or die".. I mean, those lines just seem to beg for some, uh, "emphasis," shall we say. [just a bit]

.. okay.. well, it’s time to go to beddie byes, methinks. Oh, this song, which I may have posted before.. (although youtube doesn’t have Sarah’s version, which is the one I sang to as a child).. anyway, it’s a song I quite like singing, and that reminds me of you, my love.. [okay, maybe not the singing "off key" part].. [actually, I remember making that qualification before, so I must have posted this before]

.. okay, but first my little kiss to you.. x.. (it’s a sleepy one, but still quite nice, it think) (I miss you..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ehMx12dS ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx x x… xxx x x.. xx..

[Violet]

OCCUPY WALL STREET

.. I'm sort of liking this guy.. [nice approach, I think]..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2JlxbKtB ... e=youtu.be
FULL SCREEN..

[now, just where do I have those wood shims.. let me think] [how 'bout just a brick?]


.. my beloved.. today is truly a breakthrough day, it turns out. I mean, at first I thought: ee-Gad.. I'm sunk!!.. but.. upon further reflection.. maybe.. just maybe.. paradoxically, it seems.. this will even help me in some way. I mean, maybe it will actually be a sort of "time saver." [possibly] You see, I came upon an article.. [since I get emails concerning differing types of law, in fact.. I think I signed up for it for screenwriting purposes].. ANYWAY.. I REALIZED, having just read this article titled, "When Fiction & Reality Collide," that I may be coming smack up against something known as: Libel in Fiction. [not good]

Oh, and as per below: I couldn't believe this Cheney pic!! Now, I thought I was making that part of this stuff up, but no.. it seems he REALLY is a robot!!.. WHO KNEW???.. [that's sort of a joke].. However, I DO know there is legal room for parody as per.. hmm.. I'm forgetting what the legal term is.. but, I've looked into that aspect before, concerning copyright law, as it pertained to a screenplay I was writing.. so, I do think I'll be okay as far as that stuff goes.. but.. I mean.. to name names in the music industry, and in a way that's rather.. well.. the implications are rather disturbing, to say the least.. well, that could have me in BWIG BWIG TWUBBLE.. [as Tweety Bird might put it].. so.. I may have to back track on what I've been writing, and try to be more.. uh.. "allusive".. I'm thinking.. unless I cut that part out entirely.

[sigh]

I guess at the end of this I'll need to consult a publishing lawyer, and get a solid opinion on all of this.. oh, and naming Halliburton and Goldman Sachs might be dicey, as well..

[another sigh]

.. so.. this is actually too bad.. I mean, I don't know if substituting fictionalized names is the answer, either.. although I suppose that's conceivably an option. How 'bout: Soldman Gachs, and Ballihurton??..

[even another sigh]

.. GAD.. I'd been working so hard on this, too.. so very copiously..

[oy]

.. so, my love.. I guess this is what happens when you just throw yourself into something not knowing exactly what it is you are doing, and what all the ramifications may be.

[even ANOTHER, BIGGER sigh]

.. BUT.. I won't let this deter me. I just have to re-analyze all of this.

.. okay, well.. I'll send you an early little kiss, then.. x.. with the promise this time that All Will Be Well.. (my angel)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lFL9wP01 ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx x x.. xxx x.. xx..