My delusion

[Juan Juanders]

Jj

[Violet]

I lost my faith in something
and while it hurt a lot
I'm kinda getting better now
Debt-free and off the hook

What did I lose faith in?
Friendship I suppose
A deeper friendship
bound without the ripping off of clothes

You mentioned my delusion
that I thought it could be sweet
Perhaps you thought I planned for you to
be my sexy beast

Though all I ever asked for
was a special bond that lasts
I never did ask you
to squeeze your toothpaste from my arse

.. hi juanita.. I'm glad you're back here.. I will read your poems again but I'm just running through right now.. that last line is.. well.. I sort of think I maybe kinda know what you mean, maybe.. sort of.. not really.. but.. sort 'a..
.. get back to you later,
v i o l e t x

[Juan Juanders]

Does that make sense?

Juan-she xoxo

[Violet]

.. hi J.. yes, it's making more sense now with that story..

... it's strange, though.. I mean.. it borders on worship too.. I mean, if you would deign to use your lover's, um, shit for toothpaste.. it's not quite the same as conflating that person with shit, if you see my point..

.. anyway, I tried a pedestal analogy here before that really doesn't work, since you don't really fall from a degraded position me no thinks.. I mean that place where one feels to be taken for "the body," without the soul or person to go with it.. which is I think what you're referring to..

v. x