the relationship of the week
Posted: Sun Mar 23, 2003 3:46 am
the relationship of the week
I gotta admit, the mystery is gone.
The whole business of love,
and all its accompanying side effects,
holds little surprise for me anymore.
I’ve experienced every possible emotion
with a multitude of women,
love, hate, confidence, fear,
and I have too often lived through them,
drawing energy from them
as if they were the source from which
all life sprung.
Most of them were clawing phantoms
in the night, actually,
and I was their servant ---
an empty shell of a man only existing
to fulfill their every need.
And those that loved me, I abused
and took advantage of them all,
I swore my undying devotion to many
so that they would spread their thighs,
and render me incoherent with
wonderment and fear.
Often filled with a barely contained resentment
towards any that dare love me,
they would become the invisible ideal
towards which I would half-heartedly aspire.
Man,
I’ve never had relationships, I’ve only had
hostages.
I gotta admit, the mystery is gone.
The whole business of love,
and all its accompanying side effects,
holds little surprise for me anymore.
I’ve experienced every possible emotion
with a multitude of women,
love, hate, confidence, fear,
and I have too often lived through them,
drawing energy from them
as if they were the source from which
all life sprung.
Most of them were clawing phantoms
in the night, actually,
and I was their servant ---
an empty shell of a man only existing
to fulfill their every need.
And those that loved me, I abused
and took advantage of them all,
I swore my undying devotion to many
so that they would spread their thighs,
and render me incoherent with
wonderment and fear.
Often filled with a barely contained resentment
towards any that dare love me,
they would become the invisible ideal
towards which I would half-heartedly aspire.
Man,
I’ve never had relationships, I’ve only had
hostages.