In response to Manna
I'm trying to figure out a way that I can have faith. So far the answer is no.
There are many words thrown around/used in this topic your are tumbling in.
There are many ways to satisfaction.
Words like belief, faith, religion, spirituality and so on. If none of them mean much to you, good. They are only words.
To put it simply, you can believe in honey, have faith that you know what honey is, what it tastes like, smells like looks like only after you have experienced honey. That is logical and fair enough. Until you actually put that honey in your mouth, you do not and cannot really know honey.
All cultures have their own flavoured honey based on the environment the bees operate in. The flavour is affected by the flowers they visit, and, at a certain level all honey is honey.
It is the same with this quest you are on. The age-old quest that seems to go back to the jungle and the trees of ancients. Perhaps it goes back to the amoeba, to the energy latent in star-dust, and the energy latent in you.
To connect with that energy/consciousness, that honey of honeys, is probably where you are headed. There are varied ways of doing that. One popular vehicle/method is meditation, the stilling of thoughts to no thought and emptiness, then waiting and being.
Another method is through exhaustion, like a native dancing around a fire till they drop, or a Dervish dancing in circles till he/she finds their own centre and somehow align it with the centre of all things.
There is the way of love and losing ones way (conscious mind) and falling into a transcendental state of being/consciousness and there are several other ways as well.
If a way is not "given" then you work at one or several of the methods mentioned, and if you are fortunate, a way will be found.
Leonard goes to Buddha school, not to become a Buddhist, but to learn/experience their Way. It is an effective method for a rational man like you. Buddha's name bohdi which I believe means "Reason", his was the way of reason, much the same as Plato's way was also. Plato is another good path to walk on your quest.
The thing, generally speaking, the seeker has to make the effort. By making an effort you somehow create opportunities for forming a relationship/union with that which you seek.
Of course, it could all be madness and illusion. At least the quest is fun and rewarding in that one gets to know themself pretty well and if nothing more, that is a hell of a positive step.
It is also healthy to seek for answers outside your own tradition/religion as somehow, later on, it helps you connect with or understand your inherited "Way" better.
Strive to find your centre
and align it with the centre of all things
enjoy,
Regards, Matj