The lie
Posted: Sat Oct 28, 2006 7:32 pm
the lie
I looked for you
in the echo of my friends’ words
in those moments
in which they no longer spoke
at my father’s and mother’s dying bed
I looked for you
I gathered you close
in the first eyelight of my children
never, though, I met you
never I’ve known you inside
that is why I no longer fear you
I know you do not know me
and I not you
from my dreams
I’ve exiled you
from my hope
your name have I forgotten
like the name of an old doll
and now that I slowly retrieve the child in me
the scent of myrrh and candles dissipates
now that I am farther than I can return
now in my chest the longing stops
and I shake my head now
for all the foolishness you are
that turns you into a lie
day after day
Dany Hilven
I looked for you
in the echo of my friends’ words
in those moments
in which they no longer spoke
at my father’s and mother’s dying bed
I looked for you
I gathered you close
in the first eyelight of my children
never, though, I met you
never I’ve known you inside
that is why I no longer fear you
I know you do not know me
and I not you
from my dreams
I’ve exiled you
from my hope
your name have I forgotten
like the name of an old doll
and now that I slowly retrieve the child in me
the scent of myrrh and candles dissipates
now that I am farther than I can return
now in my chest the longing stops
and I shake my head now
for all the foolishness you are
that turns you into a lie
day after day
Dany Hilven