Post-Mortem Bar
Posted: Fri Apr 30, 2004 5:05 am
Post-Mortem Bar
I now pronounce a judgement over those friendships I have shared
with ghosts long dead who shared in my abuse.
I admit there was much I did that was all together unprepared,
impossible to accept, my behavior without excuse.
You appear to me now shrouded by the cloud of hysterical times
when I aspired to silence yet was expected to go so far.
You speak to me in magical proverbs and long forgotten rhymes
like the whispers of promises heard in a post-mortem bar.
You would be the lesser ghosts of a another man’s days,
but I most certainly claim you as one of my own.
You have tortured me with your regrets and the unspeakable ways
you mastered to assure that I have remained alone.
I cannot promise that I am able to love you anymore,
you crippled me as I reached for that lofty, imperial star.
So much is ruined around us that I feel compelled to restore;
I will greet you with a sigh in that post-mortem bar.
Do you remember when the dance of ages seemed timed in our favor?
Do you remember when the lights of ambition seemed to touch our souls?
I doubt you do now, and if I find that I once again meet you later
I will not forget those instances when you exercised complete control.
I now pronounce a judgement over those friendships I have shared,
those hallucinatory years I spent spreading my heart out too far.
I condemn you for every transgression, every way of escape you
prepared,
leaving me alone in this post-mortem bar.
I now pronounce a judgement over those friendships I have shared
with ghosts long dead who shared in my abuse.
I admit there was much I did that was all together unprepared,
impossible to accept, my behavior without excuse.
You appear to me now shrouded by the cloud of hysterical times
when I aspired to silence yet was expected to go so far.
You speak to me in magical proverbs and long forgotten rhymes
like the whispers of promises heard in a post-mortem bar.
You would be the lesser ghosts of a another man’s days,
but I most certainly claim you as one of my own.
You have tortured me with your regrets and the unspeakable ways
you mastered to assure that I have remained alone.
I cannot promise that I am able to love you anymore,
you crippled me as I reached for that lofty, imperial star.
So much is ruined around us that I feel compelled to restore;
I will greet you with a sigh in that post-mortem bar.
Do you remember when the dance of ages seemed timed in our favor?
Do you remember when the lights of ambition seemed to touch our souls?
I doubt you do now, and if I find that I once again meet you later
I will not forget those instances when you exercised complete control.
I now pronounce a judgement over those friendships I have shared,
those hallucinatory years I spent spreading my heart out too far.
I condemn you for every transgression, every way of escape you
prepared,
leaving me alone in this post-mortem bar.