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[Teratogen]

This is a list of questions I've been wanting to ask the girl that's been giving me the most grief I've ever felt in my entire life. It's been 3 weeks and 1 day now. Yes, I've been counting. It's hard not to do when you wake up every morning seeing the date on the calendar has moved up one since the last time you've spoken to her. And from that moment I wake up in the morning she is there in my head. I can't shake it. She's in there at work, trying to get through the day. Can't function because she clouds my vision, my judgments. Trying to go to the bathroom, trying to get yourself dressed, trying to eat without an appetite, trying to smoke a cigarette on your break, trying to listen to other people talk, trying to watch TV, watch a movie, read a book, trying to be in the company of others, trying to lie in bed and fall asleep and she's still there. From the moment I wake to the moment I attempt to slumber she is there. It's no exaggeration either. I've never had this happen to me before. When a relationship fizzles in the blink of an eye it's difficult to cope with. There is no closure. If she'd ever speak to me again these are the questions I've been dying to ask. But I've been broken off from all contact. I've been blocked. I'll never know if she'll speak to me again, but if she did... if she cares enough to speak to me, I have questions, questions, questions.

I wrote these out randomly and then typed them out and rearranged them in a more cohesive order. Somehow it just seemed poetic to me, so I titled it and posted it here. Enjoy.

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What do you see in yourself?
What do you see in me?
Do you know what I see in you?
What do I mean to you?
How much do you value our friendship?
Can we ever be friends again?
Do you feel guilty about the way you treated me?
Do you feel you’ve led me on?
Were you ever happy spending time with me?
Have I ever made you feel special?
Do you care about me at all?
Why do you not accept my affection?
Do you feel you are not worthy of it?
What makes my affection not good enough for you?
Do you believe in love?
What makes you not want love?
Are you afraid of me?
Are you afraid of love?
Do you feel that it’s not in you to accept someone’s love?
Are you afraid of getting hurt?
Are you happier without me?
Are you happy with the life you lead?
What gives you happiness?
Do you think you have everything in life that you want?
What makes you feel loved?
What have I done to hurt you?
What have I done to push you away?
What makes you not want to talk to me anymore?
Why do you not want to deal with someone who loves you?
What is wrong about the way I feel for you?
What is it about me that is no good enough for you?
Why do you feel that it can’t work out between us?
Do you think you are not good enough to love me back?
Do you think I’m worthy of being loved?
Do you think less of me for loving you?
Were you upset that I didn’t try to talk to you sooner?
Were you upset when I said things you didn’t want to hear?
Were you upset when you pushed me away?
How did you think I felt when you pushed me away?
Did you care about hurting my feelings?
Did you ever expect this to happen?
Did you ever think I would confess my feelings for you?
Did you ever think I’d be capable of loving you?
What upsets you about the way I feel about you?
Have I ever hurt your feelings before?
Have I ever made you feel unwanted?
Have I ever expressed disinterest in you?
Have you ever felt I expressed hatred towards you?
Do you feel I’ve disrespected you in any way?
Do you feel I am too judgmental of you?
Can you forgive me for being overbearing?
Can you forgive me for feeling the way I do about you?
Can you understand why I feel the way I do about you?
Can you accept me for what I am?
Can you accept me for what I am not?
Do you believe me when I tell you that I love you?