Jokers' Wild
Posted: Wed Oct 21, 2009 11:35 am
Another sort of companion piece to Engulfed and A Leaf At the Mercy of the Breeze.
Jokers’ Wild
I thought we could just lay
everything out on the table
Place our bets, go all in
Forego our better judgment
and put everything on the line
I play my King of Hearts
And you your Jokers’ wild.
It’s hard to beat the house
when our profits are never clear
But I was certain I could win.
I think of your face
quite often
And I know that I lost it
I think of your smile
and I know what I am missing
And it kills me, it kills me, it kills me.
Oh, God, it kills me.
I can’t eat.
I can’t sleep,
but it’s all I want to do.
I can’t face the world another day.
I can’t get you out of my head.
I can’t stop feeling sorry for myself
and I understand I’m being selfish.
In my defense I’m just so tired
of being lonely, broken
having so much love to give
and no one to give it to.
I felt unworthy, I lacked belief
in myself
But you brought that out in me
You taught me that it was okay
to be what you are,
even if it’s not much
and I know you cared for me.
I’ve been grateful, so grateful,
but I knew of your doubts too
I wanted so much to let you see
in yourself
All that you allowed me to see
in me.
And when I saw the beauty
in your eyes,
in your face,
in your heart,
in your body,
in your being,
in your soul,
in your love
I was overwhelmed
by all of it.
I fell in love, I fell in love, I fell in love.
But you did not want it
You did not want it.
I could not understand,
but you did not want it.
I saw your fear, I heard your doubts
I know your love exists
but it’s not for me to have.
We were friends, good friends
Close friends, happy friends
But you said you had no feelings
You said you did not want to be close
Oh, how I ruined the greatest thing
I ever knew.
Where are you now?
What makes you happy?
What makes you thankful?
What makes you feel blessed?
What gives you back the smile
I so selfishly took away?
Oh, it kills me, it kills me, it kills me
And I’m so sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry.
I laid it all out on the table
I placed my bet
I took the risk
I played my King of Hearts
I gave everything I had.
And I lost you.
I lost.
I lost.
I am lost.
Jokers’ Wild
I thought we could just lay
everything out on the table
Place our bets, go all in
Forego our better judgment
and put everything on the line
I play my King of Hearts
And you your Jokers’ wild.
It’s hard to beat the house
when our profits are never clear
But I was certain I could win.
I think of your face
quite often
And I know that I lost it
I think of your smile
and I know what I am missing
And it kills me, it kills me, it kills me.
Oh, God, it kills me.
I can’t eat.
I can’t sleep,
but it’s all I want to do.
I can’t face the world another day.
I can’t get you out of my head.
I can’t stop feeling sorry for myself
and I understand I’m being selfish.
In my defense I’m just so tired
of being lonely, broken
having so much love to give
and no one to give it to.
I felt unworthy, I lacked belief
in myself
But you brought that out in me
You taught me that it was okay
to be what you are,
even if it’s not much
and I know you cared for me.
I’ve been grateful, so grateful,
but I knew of your doubts too
I wanted so much to let you see
in yourself
All that you allowed me to see
in me.
And when I saw the beauty
in your eyes,
in your face,
in your heart,
in your body,
in your being,
in your soul,
in your love
I was overwhelmed
by all of it.
I fell in love, I fell in love, I fell in love.
But you did not want it
You did not want it.
I could not understand,
but you did not want it.
I saw your fear, I heard your doubts
I know your love exists
but it’s not for me to have.
We were friends, good friends
Close friends, happy friends
But you said you had no feelings
You said you did not want to be close
Oh, how I ruined the greatest thing
I ever knew.
Where are you now?
What makes you happy?
What makes you thankful?
What makes you feel blessed?
What gives you back the smile
I so selfishly took away?
Oh, it kills me, it kills me, it kills me
And I’m so sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry.
I laid it all out on the table
I placed my bet
I took the risk
I played my King of Hearts
I gave everything I had.
And I lost you.
I lost.
I lost.
I am lost.