Nothing much
Posted: Sat Nov 15, 2003 4:43 pm
Nothing much
I’ve erased every word I’ve written. You don’t believe me?
All the letters piled up like so much firewood and ended up
making a great display of nothingness. It’s almost like
dreamless sleep - not much to be said, really.
This is just ashes; theater make-up for a featureless face,
momentary nostalgia like an obituary in the local paper.
But don’t think I don’t care. I care. Every word I never said
was meant to convey my affection. I wrote it all down at some point.
I don’t remember when, or where it was, but I’m sure the future is
contained in those misplaced notebooks, just like the past
has imploded into this.
I realize I lied – I have no misplaced notebooks, I haven’t erased
anything that was worth keeping. Can you keep the secret?
From yourself?
I’ve erased every word I’ve written. You don’t believe me?
All the letters piled up like so much firewood and ended up
making a great display of nothingness. It’s almost like
dreamless sleep - not much to be said, really.
This is just ashes; theater make-up for a featureless face,
momentary nostalgia like an obituary in the local paper.
But don’t think I don’t care. I care. Every word I never said
was meant to convey my affection. I wrote it all down at some point.
I don’t remember when, or where it was, but I’m sure the future is
contained in those misplaced notebooks, just like the past
has imploded into this.
I realize I lied – I have no misplaced notebooks, I haven’t erased
anything that was worth keeping. Can you keep the secret?
From yourself?