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Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Fri Jun 05, 2009 6:43 pm
by lazariuk
I am going to write a story about something that happened to Leonard when he was a little boy. None of it is true. I never knew Leonard as a young boy, nor anyone who did. I haven't talked to anyone who would have described any of these events. Nor will I be telling about anything that happened to me personally. So it is all fiction, well maybe not all fiction; he probably was at one time a little boy.

The Story - Leonard as a boy

Once upon a time, when Leonard was 8 years old he was attending a school in Montreal that had it's own once upon a time when Catholics and Jews went to the same school.
Anyway Christmas time came and as part of the way to celebrate, presents were given from child to child by way of names chosen from a hat. Tim had picked Heather's name. Every boy in the class, including Leonard, wanted to get Heather's name but when the day arrived everyone learned that it was Tim. Tim was a bit odd and not very popular.
Leonard was one of the people watching as Tim handed Heather her present. Everybody knew that Tim especially liked Heather, except Heather who just knew that all the boys liked her. Tim was very poor and unlike the other children did not have the kind of parents who would buy a present for him to give. This was a very big moment for him that he didn't want to have pass by and so when Heather unwrapped the present she saw that he had given her the best thing that he had to give which was a small tray of used water color paints. I mean she saw the paints but what she was really seeing was that she wasn't going to be getting the very best present in the class which she thought was her due since she was the most beautiful.

Tears came to her eyes and she threw the paint set back at Tim and ran from the room. She ran past Leonard on her way out and he thought that somewhere in all this there might be an opportunity to win some favor with Heather. Leonard didn't really know what to do, going after her would be showing too much of his hand so he stayed sitting and turned his attention toward Tim.

Tim was sitting on the floor with some marks of the various water colors on his person but that was hardly an issue because what was more noticeable was that he was starting to shake and Leonard could see that Tim was about to lose a very big battle to crying. The battle was lost and Tim started crying and was also still shaking. He was never going to be able to forgive himself for hurting Heather like that and he cried and he trembled.

Leonard found himself deeply moved by the scene and somehow wished he could do something and felt that something was required of him. He wanted to go over to Tim and find a way to help him but he also felt frozen. Who wasn't frozen was a girl that was sitting beside him and she rushed over to Tim and put her arms around him and held him tight until he stopped shaking and eventually stopped crying. She looked clumsy and awkward doing it but she did it. Her name was Bernadette.

Bernadette got a lot of teasing for what she did, including some teasing from Leonard but she seemed to take it all in her awkward gracious way. For a long time there were calls of "Bernadette loves Tim" and stuff like that. Leonard never got to know her very well but from then on he always felt that he liked her although she wasn't his kind of girl. They did spend a bit of time talking the next year which was the year his dad died and it was during this time she told him how she said the Rosary every day. He did have his mind on other parts of her body when she showed him the religious medals she had hanging from a chain around her neck, but nothing ever came of that.

Many, many years later when he was riding the Paris metro at a part where it rose above ground he had looked out the window and seen a man at the end of the station platform who was crying and shaking and all of a sudden he remembered Tim and Heather and Bernadette. As the train left the station he saw a woman walking toward the man but never got to see if she was there for him and he had to let go of trying to watch. What he didn't let go of though was that memory of the way Bernadette had held Tim and he rushed back to his hotel room and wrote a song called "Song For Bernadette" which some very lovely women have been singing ever since including Barbara Dickson
She can be heard at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tVRD1xtLQ0s
The little girl at the beginning of the video reminds me of someone.

Anyway that is my story of lies. If you hate it please don't hate me because it just came to my mind and my mind seems to have a mind of it's own and doesn't mind telling these lies.

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Fri Jun 05, 2009 7:00 pm
by Violet
Jack.. I thought your story charming.. Leonard would like it too, I think.. please make up some more... v. xxx

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Fri Jun 05, 2009 8:08 pm
by lazariuk
Violet wrote:Jack.. I thought your story charming.. Leonard would like it too, I think.. please make up some more... v. xxx
Thanks Violet. very sweet of you to say that. There are many stories that I want to tell and will take your please as a sign that you won't mind if I don't have time to look in basements.

After I looked at it a few times on the screen I saw that there was something that my mind kept telling me is not the lie it wanted me to tell. It is that part on the train platform. My mind tells me that it was not someone who reminded him of Tim but rather someone that reminded him of Heather. Someone who had no one to bring her that kind of comfort and walked by him looking a little cold. Maybe we can have some community participation to see what would make more sense. What do you think is a better story?

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Fri Jun 05, 2009 8:56 pm
by Violet
.. well, the second idea comes to mind, because it has you thinking of Leonard's Dear Heather song.. and there is that mention of winter in that song, and your saying this woman is seeming to be cold, in need of someone's comfort maybe...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0OgzRryqE0

Leonard's song is an odd one though.. at first it's tipsy feeling, as if the person commenting in the song has already had a few as Heather walks by with her legs all white from the winter... but then the song sort of goes against itself in a way as it seems more and more to be about language as this composite of separate words.. with each word seeming more and more singular as the song ambles along and each word is "spelled out"... I think Leonard sets us up with his desire for this white legged Heather.. but somehow the song stubbornly remains something else.. a kind of contemplation, maybe.. a decision to remain unattached, in the Buddhist sense, perhaps...

.. what's odd for me is that my "real" middle name is Heather, and I was going to use it to post here, only someone has the name already (someone who I don't think posts here very much if at all).. and so another purple flower came up in my mind for me to use instead.. I would add that on the "Looking for a Sign" thread, Violet (the protagonist I created who gets inhabited by a demon attachment) is looking to Leonard for a sign.. which might be his using the name Violet in a song.. But here I'm faced with a song that does reference my name, and yet it refuses to be what I would have preferred it to be.. something more on the order of Suzanne maybe (!).. (I don't aim low, not at all)..

Sorry.. it seems like I just wrote a story myself, although mine is not made up, at least not in the way that you made up yours.. Anyway.. as I said before, I'm drawn to your idea of changing the end so that it's the woman walking by that conjures this story from his past.. whether this has anything to do with his writing of Dear Heather, maybe you would know better than I do.. or maybe, given she existed as this road never taken, it would make sense that the song would turn out the way it did... the way I just described, I mean..

.. as for the basement, Jack, you really have to wait for something to emerge.. like when you wake up in a sweat in the middle of the night -- hopefully that doesn't happen to you too often -- but if it ever does, try to write something down at that point, for example.. or maybe there's just some dark lurking poem-entity that might seep into your mind.. Anyway, you really can’t plan these things I don’t think.. so the basement should just be there.. stewing..

.. sorry to blab so much (it's such a rainy day, I'm in a dreamy mood, and not focusing too well on what I'm supposed to be doing),
'til later,
v i o l e t

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Fri Jun 05, 2009 9:50 pm
by imaginary friend
I prefer the glimpse at the train station to have reminded Leonard of Tim, with the off-chance that Bernadette was with him. (Once you have been comforted by Bernadette, you would always be able to find her again – yes?) For me, your story would lose something if the glimpse had been of the Heather-figure, it would have become more predicatible, plus we wouldn't have had the beautiful, comforting Song of Bernadette.

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Fri Jun 05, 2009 10:08 pm
by lazariuk
imaginary friend wrote:I prefer the glimpse at the train station to have reminded Leonard of Tim, with the off-chance that Bernadette was with him. (Once you have been comforted by Bernadette, you would always be able to find her again – yes?) For me, your story would lose something if the glimpse had been of the Heather-figure, it would have become more predicatible, plus we wouldn't have had the beautiful, comforting Song of Bernadette.
Why wouldn't we? Do you not think that Heather is not as deserving of the kind of holding that Bernadette gave? Could he not have seen what Bernadette gave to Tim as somethings he longs to give to Heather? I don't think we would need to lose the Bernadette song but rather just take it as a way to look at the Heather song and take the crazy idea that he is spelling like during the years that he was learning to spell. Isn't that a decent lie?

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Fri Jun 05, 2009 10:11 pm
by Violet
Jack... this is feeling like a problem that the new technology can solve.. you can have two choices of endings.. and you follow each choice through.. (something I believe is being done with virtual story telling.. not that I'm terribly up on these things)... It just seems that you've set something up with these names Heather and Bernadette, given these two songs.. so why foreclose on one in favor of the other?... create a kind of fork in the road.. an option 1 and an option 2...

.. I think I see the problem with this, if they are viewed as mutually exclusive.. so..

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Fri Jun 05, 2009 10:28 pm
by imaginary friend
imaginary friend wrote:
I prefer the glimpse at the train station to have reminded Leonard of Tim, with the off-chance that Bernadette was with him. (Once you have been comforted by Bernadette, you would always be able to find her again – yes?) For me, your story would lose something if the glimpse had been of the Heather-figure, it would have become more predicatible, plus we wouldn't have had the beautiful, comforting Song of Bernadette.


Jack replied:
Why wouldn't we? Do you not think that Heather is not as deserving of the kind of holding that Bernadette gave? Could he not have seen what Bernadette gave to Tim as somethings he longs to give to Heather? I don't think we would need to lose the Bernadette song but rather just take it as a way to look at the Heather song and take the crazy idea that he is spelling like during the years that he was learning to spell. Isn't that a decent lie?
Yes, it is a decent – even compassionate – lie.

... and Leonard's Dear Heather took the form of letter-writing, the way (espec.) a child might spell out words as he writes them; '...your legs all white from the W-I-N-T-E-R...', even the title is a salutation. Maybe he was writing a letter to Heather about his memory of her white legs as she walked past his desk with a drink of juice from her lunchbox...

So thanks for sneezing me out of this one Jack.

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Sat Jun 06, 2009 3:37 am
by lazariuk
imaginary friend wrote: So thanks for sneezing me out of this one Jack.
I don't think it is me. The song seems to be able to communicate a love thats always. That works in all ways. I have been playing with different pictures and they all seem to work. The you can be spoken to maybe a man he is seeing right in front of him in the train who is very upset and Leonard wants to give him a hug, a very needed hug but has to find a way in and the way is through the innocence of children.
It could be to a grandchild learning to walk or has had some big failures.
and on and on - try some yourself to someone nearby or even yourself

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Sat Jun 06, 2009 4:13 am
by Cate
'I just want to hold you
Won't you let me hold you
Like Bernadette would do'


~ ~

I love how simple yet beautiful these words are.

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Sat Jun 06, 2009 4:20 am
by Cate
imaginary friend wrote: ... and Leonard's Dear Heather took the form of letter-writing, the way (espec.) a child might spell out words as he writes them; '...your legs all white from the W-I-N-T-E-R...', even the title is a salutation. Maybe he was writing a letter to Heather about his memory of her white legs as she walked past his desk with a drink of juice from her lunchbox...
:lol:

~

I feel bad that Heather couldn’t see the beauty of the paints – maybe this is why she is destined for a life of plain white in which people have to clearly spell things out to get her attention.

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Sat Jun 06, 2009 4:32 am
by imaginary friend
I hope she has learned kindness (and some manners!) along the way. She ain't no spring chicken any more; she can't still be trading on her looks alone.

(I took Jack's advice and showed mercy, mercy in this world, to Steve. Hugged the damn man even though I'm angry with him. It helped. It did. Anyone else need a hug?)

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Sat Jun 06, 2009 4:38 am
by Cate
Oh ME, I need a hug

hug me please!

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Sat Jun 06, 2009 5:33 am
by imaginary friend
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO's to you anytime Cate.

Re: Leonard as a boy - a pack of lies

Posted: Sat Jun 06, 2009 6:51 am
by Violet
Hi Jack.. Cate and I.F... I felt disappointed about Heather and the way she handled Tim's earnest gift of used paints too.. for some reason it brought to mind (in terms of what was missing) that lovely love story.. the one where the woman cuts off her long beautiful hair so she can buy her true love something.. I can't remember what.. tobacco, maybe.. and he sells his pipe, let's say, so he can buy her a comb for her long beautiful hair.. and so the gifts they each receive are no longer of use, given the sacrifices they each made so they might purchase them.. and yet..

.. somehow, at least on Heather's end of things, such selfless sentiment is missing from the story, although her reaction seems quite plausible, I'm afraid..

.. actually, I think I would have been the one giving the embarrassing gift.. so I guess I'm not that Heather (!)...

I.F., if you have an extra hug.. and whenever you get around to it..

v i o l e t (the other heather)
xxx ooo