Daddy's Little Princess.

[Violet]

.. my beloved.. it was storming all night last night.. [it's still raining out].. and I awoke WITHOUT POWER!!!.. Ohmugod.. but THANKFULLY it's now been restored. [thankfully]

.. once again, I feel terribly grateful to the gods of electricity, whom we don't really praise enough, I don't think. [we all need to start doing that, obviously] [or at least up here folks do]

.. so.. I don't know, I'm just relieved.

I hope you had a wonderful birthday yesterday--oh, that was funny. Every time I get an email my blackberry chimes in with this bell sound. And, so, every time someone wished you a Happy Birthday yesterday, and my email got an email prompt.. [since one usually gets prompted if there is activity on a thread you've previously posted on] [it's actually a patchy affair, and I find I get prompted fairly randomly in that regard].. ANYWAY.. I was reminded of that line from the Frank Capra film, It's a Wonderful Life.. "every time a bell rings, an angel gets his wings".. since, almost every time I heard a bell ring yesterday, I knew it was someone from the forum sending you their good wishes (!).. [it was rather magical seeming somehow]

.. okay.. need to get back to work. Tomorrow is Gotham day, and a birthday dinner with some friends.. then my brother--and crazy cuz [yet again] return with me for our birthday on Sunday. I'm actually going to be very ambitious and try to make [for the very first time] what looks to be a truly wonderful birthday cake. Well, it's sort of a cake. It's called "Mille Crepe," and it's just layer upon layer of very thin crepes, with this light 'n lovely pastry creme between each layer. I know this is going to be difficult, given it's my first go at crepes.. so.. we'll see how it goes. It looks delicious, though. [I wish I could have some with you, my angel]

Oh, and by the way, just because I sometimes use cake as my medium, doesn't mean I'm some sort of cake baking genius. [I think I've demonstrated that fact with some lousy cookies I literally threw together last Christmas].. And even the cake I made for my film, I mean, it was a real nightmare getting the color of the cake to match the color of the frosting to then match the color of the background (!!).. (you have no idea). So, no, it wasn't some miracle of post production. I actually baked the cake [combining two different cakes, of course] to look as it does in that film still, and so it's all "in camera" as it were. I'm actually something of an "in camera" girl, and scorn the lousy quality of most CGI. [that's Computer Generated Imagery]

[just needed to get that off my chest]

.. okay, well, lastly here, I'm giving myself 'til next week sometime to finish this next section of writing I'm now working on, and then I can evaluate and even outline what's still on my plate to accomplish with this thing. It's all still a bit daunting, but I'm trying not to think about that too much. [just keeping my head down, and keeping going sort of thing]

.. well, have a lovely birthday weekend, my love. I will have my hands full with guests 'n crepes 'n things, so I'll see if I come here or not.. and if not, just know you're always in my thoughts. (I'd say more, but I'm trying not to turn to mush)

.. in any case, I'm missing you.. (rather terribly).. and I send my sweetest, most tender little kiss.. x

[moments later]:

.. gosh, I just watched this on youtube, and it had me in tears (!).. [as usually happens with this film].. This is just how we all feel about you here, my angel.. (though maybe I do especially).. (my love)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mrmUipa1 ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xxx x.. xxx x.. xxx x..

[Violet]

.. my beloved.. as I stated elsewhere today, I've got to get to the first phase of crepe making. [tomorrow they get assembled].. but, still, I'm missing you, and..

.. actually.. [just briefly, here]..

.. okay, so, yesterday I found myself slogging around in Gotham in the pouring rain.. and.. [since it's my birthday weekend].. I had earlier thought: well, I'll wear this pretty black dress that I just had shortened.. [yes, shortened].. [I never liked the length before, and so I FINALLY had it shortened].. so, there I was in my pretty dress, and my slippery, mule-ish, open toe shoes.. and in no time at all I was sopping wet, and wading through water up to my ankles--and this, even with an [over-priced] umbrella I bought on the Upper East Side, where I was first caught in the downpour. [I left my umbrella at home, you see]

.. actually, it wasn't just a temporal downpour. The pouring rain kept on coming for hours 'n hours, so there was no use waiting in a cafe somewhere for it to stop. [although I did do just that] [only, it wouldn't].. [stop, I mean]

.. but there is a slightly happy ending to the day, since, later on.. [after the rain had slowed to a drizzle, leaving me to feel rather like a drowned water rat].. I found myself passing by this vintage clothing and furniture shop, and I thought: my god, if I can find ANY pair of shoes that fit, I'm buying them. I don't care what they look like. Just to get out of these slippery dippery shoes. So, I go inside and IMMEDIATELY I find these very elegant [extremely comfortable] Cole Haan numbers--a black, slide on, wedge sort of scenario. [quite flattering] Oh, and I picked them up for a mere twenty-five ducats. Done. [thus: a very happy birthday girl] [at a very affordable price]

.. okay, so.. actually, earlier today, my brother and I.. [oh: crazy cuz did the dinner last night but decided to forego the weekend, given the dismal weather forecast].. but anyway, earlier, my brother and I were youtubing.. and.. well, to get the birthday spirit going, I thought I'd post this for you.. (my love).. (it's very sexy, I think).. (oh, and I send my little kiss to you, too.. x).. (actually, I awoke this morning all sad, and bitter-sweetly pining for you.. so.. this is a rather different mood, I suggest).. (more pro-active, you might say)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iJVtv9LlK9Y
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx x xxx x.. xx x..

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. my angel.. my perfect perfect perfect specimen of a human being.. [three perfects is sounding just right to me for some reason]

.. anyway, after yesterday's [somewhat stressful] array of culinary events, I know now [without a doubt] that I was correct in suggesting that making these Mille Crepes was an ambitious undertaking. However, I wouldn't have said it was foolhardy of me. Only, now I'm not so sure.

.. okay, here's the thing:

I'm pretty sure that, right this very minute, there are hundreds and hundreds of French, wanna-be pastry chefs slaving over perfecting their precious pasty creme. I mean, it's that serious over there. [in France, I mean] In other words, perfecting one's pastry creme is no doubt some major milestone--both in France, and world wide. [pretty sure] And yet, here I come along, thinking I can just whip this stuff together in an afternoon sort of thing. [??] [perhaps you're beginning to see the problem here] I mean, once you're talking about heat and eggs--and avoiding something that looks to be scrambled eggs.. well, you've got some finessing on your hands. Serious finessing. [serious] I mean, the batter alone was a bit dicey--and that too involved heat and eggs.. but the creme part?..

[oy]

.. still, after coming through the first phase of this, I'm ready to head back into that little country kitchen again, and see if I can--actually, let me take it out of the fridge so I can get it up to "room temp".. [be right back]

[a few seconds later]

I should have done that an hour ago, actually..

[double oy]

.. in my defense, however.. [sort of].. the recipe I'm using--which I'm ONLY using because this Malaysian woman [yes, Malaysian] on the internet happened to know about Lady M's in Manhattan, which was the place mentioned on the Food Channel, I think it was, concerning these delicious Mille Crepes.. [and yes, I do occasionally watch cooking shows] [occasionally]

.. anyway, the point being, regardless of her making mention of Lady M's, this Malaysian woman's directions are.. well, piss poor. I have to say. After all, she should be properly preparing you for the hardship involved in this pastry creme business, since, again, heat and eggs.. oh, and real vanilla bean.. [which looks like some dark, long, scraggly looking thing] [I guess I never saw "real" vanilla bean before].. [my god: didn't the French ever hear of vanilla "extract"?.. or is that too "low brow" for them??].. [my god]

.. oh, and this lengthy process also involves boiling, then cooling milk to a certain temp, etc.. [which, when you read such directions, could really make a lesser person start to twitch all over, I would imagine] [with me, it just makes me scrunch my nose]

.. anyway, I know I made ONE mistake, as I was doing all of this. But, given the eggs didn't go scrambled on me, I think I'm in the clear on that. However, this woman gave no description at all of the process, nor what the creme should be looking like as you go along--OH, and you have to force it through a fine sieve (!).. and, I mean.. that took FOREVER, and was REALLY HARD TO DO.. so.. not sure what that means. Did it mean my creme was too thick maybe???.. [don't know].. but.. anyway, I took it out of the fridge, and will be--OH, and I need to put it through that damn sieve YET AGAIN.. this morning.. [or, afternoon.. by the look of things].. THEN.. I have to "fold in" whipped cream.. [to which I'll have already added this Kirschwasser cherry liqueur stuff].. so..

.. anyway, with the rather "solid" state this creme is in now, I'm skeptical as to how "willing" it will be to have me "fold" something into it. [anything, in fact].. [very skeptical]

.. well, I guess right now I could start making the crepes themselves, which I also have reservations about.. so..

.. well, anyway, there you have it, my love. I don't know how this is going to go. Honestly don't. All I know is that all of these ingredients are fresh, and organic, and.. well, I can't imagine they won't taste good. The question is: will it all come together as it should??.. .. [very skeptical].. [my darling]

.. okay.. so.. my little near afternoon kiss to you.. x.. and

.. oh, my brother.. [who has a very good sense of humor, as I might have mentioned].. always winds up singing this song at some point during whatever visit.. [just the refrain, actually].. and I [of course] always join in him in this. [I know, my love.. I already gave you a lot to digest with this whole "inner Julie" business, and here I'm laying this one on you.. but.. ].. In any case, I know you spent some time in New York, and so you probably already know the score [by now], but a little refresher never hurts..

.. ('til later, my love).. (my angel).. (I miss you)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1rH_iaZ ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx xxx.. xx xx.. x x x..


edits: I know I'm officially procrastinating, before getting down to it again today. Still, I find this post very wordy for some reason.. [it must be all the crepe stress I'm experiencing just now].. so.. just trying to clean it up somewhat..

.. oh, earlier I said the eggs DID go scrambled on me, when I meant to say DIDN'T go.. scrambled..

[Violet]

.. gee, I meant to post this live version.. [which I corrected, but.. thought I'd repost it]..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1rH_iaZ ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

[Violet]

.. oh, Leonard.. (my love).. [it's sort of an "oh Leonard" note, I guess]..

.. well, the Mille Crepe Cake I would have to give a solid A to, I think. [in terms of taste and texture] But if I were to venture into crepe-dom again, I guess I might want to perfect the shape of them, which was slightly expressionistic, I guess you could say. But apparently there are crepe pans, and crepe spreaders.. and crepe makers.. so, you really can get in pretty deep with this stuff if you want to.

.. but, really, it was lovely, with all those layers and layers of thin crepes and cream. Just yummy. And I'm glad I put myself through all of that somehow.

.. unfortunately.. [however].. I have to make an emergency visit to Gotham tomorrow to see my dentist [of all things] since..

okay, have you ever bitten into something really hard that you didn't realize was there--such as an olive pit, for example?.. and

yeah, I lost a filling in the transaction. Need to get an emergency session with ye ol' dentist. It's not painful or anything [thank god].. but.. 'twasn't the best birthday gift, I don't think. Pretty lousy, in fact. Now I feel like I have a cave or something in my molar.. so.. not a good feeling at all.

[sigh]

.. so.. need to be up early. At least I do wind up doing work at cafes and things, so it's really not such an interruption, all told.

.. okay, so.. good night, my love. I send you my kiss.. x.. Oh, actually, the lake was exceptionally lovely this early evening. There was some sun today, finally.. after just so much rain.. and the sky seemed a sweet and sad inky and pink farewell--possibly to the lost days of summer, since it's really been a strange, fall-like summer this year. And all the rain.. it's not like anything I can recall happening here before..

I miss you.


.. xx.. xx x xxx x..

[Karren B]

The perfect crepe Violet is fine and lacy and made with love, the shape doesn't matter just the exquisite taste.
And as far as crepes go I bet you've perfected them.
And I hope Agent Longing appreciates your delicate crepes!

Karren B (crepe connoisseur)
xx

Oh and lots of alcohol helps too!!!

[Violet]

.. you know, K., I had a feeling you'd know all about crepes. I should have sought your counsel that dark night before the dawn. You'd probably have commiserated as to how hard it is getting that pastry cream through a fine sieve (!).. But the next day I did perfect more my "sieving" technique, and it wasn't nearly as difficult. It's just that the directions I was using were nil on details, so.. I was really winging it.

.. [actually today I could have used the alcohol]

v. xx x

[Violet]

.. my love, I'm so tired, I just spent the last two-and-a-half old movies or so asleep on the couch, and so I think it's time I call it quits.

[I have a nice new ivory-colored filling now, and it looks quite pretty]

.. my tired little kiss.. x.. and my love to you, my angel.. (I was having very pleasant thoughts of you, actually, before I fell asleep.. and so, maybe I can get back to those)..

.. x x x.. xxx x..

[Violet]

.. my beloved.. I'm just reading this next section of writing, and, well, so far so good, I think.. but I still have some stuff to work out. I'm going to keep working a bit tonight, so I'm just taking a break here.. and I've been thinking about you, and hoping all is well. I did go to our lake this evening, later than usual, and so it was quite lovely to see all the warm, glowy lights twinkling inside some of the pretty little lake houses there. The leaves are beginning to change here, too.. the yellows and oranges are just creeping in.. with some leaves already falling. In fact, the first thing I saw when I looked out the window this morning was a flurry of yellow leaves coming down, and I felt my heart leap at the sight of it. I wasn't expecting it, I guess, and so I was momentarily caught "all aflutter." I half thought it was snow, I think, before it turned to fall.

.. still, the weather here remains dismal. It's so very damp and humid, and there's barely any sun, and so, one of the tasks I have to accomplish is to get my banker boxes contained in one of the upstairs rooms in the large house--the "haunted" house, I spoke of some time ago--but I need to get my boxes in there, as it's a room where I have a de-humidifier going.. I mean, it's that humid. Anyway, I decided that I should just put a little time in each day, not just moving boxes, but going through them, and getting organized, and getting rid of stuff. It seems necessary, not just in terms of the humidity, but in terms of clearing my head somehow. Along with this writing and research I'm doing, it somehow seems all of a piece.

.. so, anyway, things are steadily progressing here on this rather isolated mountain of lovely lakes and forests. But my god, the rain! It's coming down hard, just as I'm writing this, my love!

.. well, I guess should go now, and get a bit more writing done.

.. as for the link I've posted for you.. I've been enjoying getting to know this woman's arrangements. I especially liked her arrangement I posted a short while ago, the one for Too Marvelous for Words. I actually think she was very tired during that particular performance, but she's such a pro, she got through it rather well, I thought. In this one her voice sounds altogether different.. She certainly doesn't have near the facility of a Sarah or an Ella, and yet, she's managed to do quite well with the voice she has, and.. well, I guess it's her overall musicianship that I'm taken with. Oh, and the fact that so many of the youtube sequences I've found of hers are very well produced.

.. anyway, this one seems to go with what I'd been describing earlier.. but first, my little kiss to you.. x.. (my love).. (and if I hadn't told you so many times already, I'd tell you that I miss you).. (my angel)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XEThOyfm ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x xx.. xxx x x.. xxx..

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. how are you?

.. here, it rained hard all night last night, then half of today.. then it remained a misty soggy mess with occasional drizzle. Oh, and it's raining again now. Actually, I'm trying to remember what happened after it rained for forty days and forty nights. I don't think it was very good, was it?.. [probably not]

[sigh]

.. anyway, I got some work done today, but I had a lot of other bullcrap I had to attend to, and, unfortunately, the bullcrap sometimes wins out over the important stuff, which is pretty much what happened today.. so.. [just thought I'd mention]

.. actually, what I wasn't going to mention, I'll mention anyway, since it's been on my mind. My dentist told me I've been grinding my teeth at night. She never told me that before, so this is something new. And, I mean, if you met me, you wouldn't think I was an uptight person or anything.. so this is rather unlike me, I think. Or, maybe it's that I'm sweeping so much unmanageable stuff under the rug right now that it's all coming out as I sleep. But, I mean: how does one NOT grind one's teeth while they sleep??.. is there some form of rubbery hockey mouthguard or something I should now be wearing to protect myself from the "grinding" hazards of going to sleep???

.. anyway, last night I thought I'd analyze the situation, and I found that when I'm on my back it doesn't seem like I'd be grinding my teeth, since it feels rather comfortable, and I don't feel myself clenching down like that.. but then I noticed those times that, well, in desperation to fall back asleep [actually], I'll turn on my stomach [which I'm pretty sure is a bad idea for a lot of reasons, including the fact that your spine is crushing your organs when you do that] [I read that somewhere, and never forgot it].. but, anyway, I noticed right away that when I do that my jaw clenches a bit.. so.. well, either I continue with this grinding business, and get some decent sleep.. or I'll never fall back asleep again, since I really need that "on the stomach" position, in a pinch. [!!?]

[another sigh]

.. alright, my angel. I kiss you all over.. and send you this one very special one, as well.. x.. (you know, I think if I could only dream about you, and nothing else, I'd never grind my teeth.. so).. (just saying)

.. actually, I'm going to try this breathing technique I had already been looking into, which is supposed to relax the vagus nerve, which is also what smoking does.. (yes, there's an up side to smoking--only I can't breath when I smoke, so that's not much of an option for me). Anyway, I'm going to add this breathing technique to my "Be Fabulous, And Stop Grinding My Teeth" plan that I'd initiated quite some time ago now.. (only, without the "Stop Grinding My Teeth" part).. (I mean, I didn't know I was doing that at that point, so..

.. okay.. good night, my love. I adore you.


.. xxx x.. xx x x x.. xxx.. xx x..

[Violet]

.. okay, I completely forgot to wish you a Happy Rosh Hashanah last night, my angel. [and a belated holiday greetings to all those celebrating] Oh, and I made a note of doing that, too.. but.. well, I guess I had this teeth grinding business on my mind. Oh, and my lousy day, work wise. [that was bothering me]

.. today, I've been looking at the earlier parts to this whole story, to try to get a sense of the whole thing.. along with some of the Strip material I've posted.. and so I've been going over a good deal of this thread, in fact, and.. well, I have to say, it's some thread. A lot has happened these past months, both fictionally speaking and otherwise. Quite an adventure. Oh, and I watched again the youtube sequence where you recited A Thousand Kisses Deep in London, I think it was.. and.. well, it was terribly moving.. (my love).. (you had me in tears, in fact)

.. anyway, just thought I'd give you my belated well wishes. I'll make sure to remember Yom Kippur. [as I'm sure I have enough to atone for, as it is]

.. alright.. I guess I should get back in there. Oh, and it's raining AGAIN.. and so, it's hard to keep up with my bike riding. If I miss the clear spot during the day, I'm pretty much sunk.. so.. next time there's a clear patch, I gotta get a move on..

.. anyway, I hope all is happy and well where you are.. and.. I send again this little kiss.. x.. (soggy as it is at the moment)

.. actually, I'm sure I've posted this number before, but.. it just seems right somehow.. (to sort of make the best of things, I guess).. (and, well, you do give me something to sing about).. (my love).. (even if it is raining)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmCpOKtN ... 0AE1172BB1
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx x x x.. xx x x.. xx.. xx xx..


[is that great dancin' or what??]

[Violet]

Leonard, my love.. (even if you’re not my love, not really, but.. well.. hopefully you haven’t minded my calling you that all this time).. but, anyway, I just wanted to say that.. well, things seem increasingly difficult up here on this mountain.. in ways I wouldn’t even know how to go into just now, as I’m still trying to work things out, as new challenges hit me.. so, I’m just trying to find ways, internal and otherwise, to stave off defeat, as it were.. and it gets very difficult at times.

I feel to apologize to you for leaning on you, as it were, in all of this, as.. well, it’s not like you signed up for this, or anything. Still, I’m grateful to you for being there for me, if only symbolically.. since.. well, I know I could just go under, at times, and at times, it's been a life saver almost, just feeling that you might in some way be there for me.

I couldn’t sleep tonight, and started to work on Agent Longing's and Violet's story more. This is good, to use my doubts and anxieties this way. This is good.

.. anyway, I keep saying I may not post here every day, then still I do, but it's that I fear, I think, to disappear entirely if I don’t.. it’s that bad with me at times.

.. but just at times. Then things clear, and I can see again. And I feel filled with love, and even a kind of strength.. and it’s all that is important, then.

.. thank you for letting me love you, in any case. And if I’m not here sometimes.. if I make good on that, I mean.. it’s that I’m writing this thing, and trying my darnedest not to succumb to sadness, or, I don’t even know what.. maybe it's to not be derailed in the many ways there are to get derailed. But certainly despair, or feeling sorry for oneself are some of them.

There are thousands of protesters right now camping out on Wall Street, by the way. Three thousand I last heard. I don’t think the mainstream media are reporting on it, but it’s quite a phenomenon. I’ve heard there is no leader in this. It’s just people disgusted “with it all,” as it were. It’s interesting how when something like this happens, it exposes the media as the sham that it is. It seems a main premise I’m working with right now with what I’m writing. This incredible, and insidious deception.

.. so.. anyway, I’m here, doing what I'm doing.. and I guess if there is some God like something out there to whom we may each be important in some way, then maybe I have a voice, and maybe I’m not invisible, and maybe then I can continue in that knowledge then, since it’s not always easy to put these blinders on and just keep going.

I love you, my love.. however it is that you are my love. And missing you just sucks. It’s the pits, and I hate it. But at least it’s there for me, as well.. this missing you.

.. and so, again, if I am not around as consistently as I've been, just know I’m working, and I hope to post this next segment very soon.

.. all my love in this little kiss, then.. x..

[Cate]

protests - I googled and went to CNN which is reporting (as of 2 hrs ago) that the protests have dwindled to ~200 people ... then I clicked to watch their video of the protest and it took me to a clip of the guy from America's got talent interviewing Michael Moore ???

back to google and I found this, https://occupywallst.org/
I only had time to watch one of the video's, I choose the last one (two girls get maced about 5 minutes into it) ... it's a bit hard to count people as their moving all over the place but ... I looks like more then 200 to me.

x
c

[Violet]

Thanks, Cate. I haven't looked into this yet, but a friend of mine who listens to a listener-sponsored radio station here that I often listen to, has given me the figure of three thousand--with this radio station being a reliable source. As to whether there remains that number of protesters, I don't know. I heard it started with two hundred but that since last week, they've gained momentum. I'm actually surprised that CNN had mention of it at all, so there MUST be quite a few there if they felt they had to cover it. I've learned from a number of sources over the years that CNN represents the Pentagon. The morning of 9/11 representatives from the Pentagon were in their studios overseeing their coverage. Anyway, I've found that keeping that in mind is a good way to understand their perspective.

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. how are you?.. I thought I'd check in here for a moment this evening.

.. actually, I checked in [folks] with "Occupy Wall Street" just now. It seems a march planned for the Brooklyn Bridge today was blocked by police, and fifty protesters were arrested. Also, yesterday, the figure I heard [as per the same listener sponsored radio station] was six thousand protesters, which is a bit higher than the two hundred that CNN was talking about the day before. It seems, too, that this is something taking the country, with an Occupy Boston, Tampa.. New Orleans.. and others. Oh, also, it seems that at some point last week Yahoo started censoring email communications having to do with Occupy Wall Street.

wow: I just found this on a site called Think Progress, thinkprogress.org:

"Yahoo officially partners with the repressive Chinese regime to provide the government with access to emails related to groups viewed as dissidents. An explosive investigation by Der Spiegel found that Yahoo provided Chinese authorities with access to emails from journalists, and the snooping resulted in the same journalists being sent to prison camps.

The Occupy Wall Street protests have continued, but if you own a Yahoo e-mail account, you might not know about it."

.. so, I guess we'll see where all of this is heading. It's mostly young, twenty-something individuals involved in these protests. They are making use of the stat that 1% of the population controls the resources of the other 99%. So,"we are the other 99%" is how they are identifying themselves, as per one video I just watched.

.. as to other matters..

.. I've been working hard today.. (my love).. on the writing. I also managed to get in a bike ride, finally, even though the dreary weather remains--something which is not helping my spirits any. I honestly fear there will never be sun again. There was a bit of sun two days ago, I think it was. But other than that, it's been rain rain rain.. with intermittent dreariness.. followed by some rain. [again] [bleh]

.. anyway, I was thinking of where the story was heading as I was riding today. Oh, the lake, by the way, was this steely grey, with the clouds overhead even greyer.. oh, and the rain started just as I was almost done with my ride, so thank heaven for small favors sometimes. But, yes, I was thinking of where things were heading story-wise, and I'm still convinced that if I force myself to write a fairly detailed outline for the rest of this thing [once I'm done with this section I'm working on, that is] that that will help me get through it. Of course, I do know the areas I feel I need to touch on, but I'm still going at this thing blind, almost.. so.. maybe a road map at this point would be helpful, I'm thinking.

.. alright, my love. I'm rather tired, and.. well, missing you. [which I believe I've mentioned before]

.. I kiss you tenderly, and sweetly.. (and probably passionately, once I'm done bestowing those sweet and tender ones)..

.. good-night, my love.. x.. (my angel)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRUjr8EVgBg
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx x x.. xx x.. xx..