Daddy's Little Princess.

[Violet]

.. my love, it’s late, and I’m tuckered.. but I thought I’d stop in and say good-night. I did get a chance to look at the writing today, and I’m about ready to post the next segment, finally.. or, well, piece of a segment.. just need to look up a few things.

.. here’s a sweet and sad little number that’s almost like a lullaby, I think..

.. oh, and my little kiss, which maybe right now is almost like a lullaby too, I think.. x.. (I miss you).. (my love)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rHXV0Ygh ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx.. xx x.. xx x.. xxx x x..

[Violet]

.. my beloved.. I've been writing all evening, and am feeling a bit better about things. I guess it's that.. well, I've never embarked on a project where I'm really going at it blind, almost.. and I'm relying so much on my unconscious to sort of steer it.. or, I'm letting things bubble up from below.. and.. well, when you're working with real research, you can get bogged down in that, and it's only when this other more unconscious dimension enters that it's truly working somehow. I mean, so to broach the distance between hard research and what I feel art can do.

.. anyway, I imagine to feel your heart as I write this.. and mine as Violet's.. and it's reassuring, but painful too. I guess it's hormonal, too, at this point. I'm not in the best spot emotionally. But maybe it is the best spot, since it's to feel so vulnerable.

.. you know, too, my angel.. that there's just so much nature up here, and it's all around me, all the time. The mother deer and her two fawns that come to eat the fallen apples under the apple trees.. the wild turkey with her three wild turkey babies who also come by.. the chip monks.. (that escape my cat, that is).. the hawks circling, and the loud crows in the pine trees.. the little woodpecker I keep hearing, and seeing.. the hummingbird.. every day it's like this.

.. actually, I didn't go to our lake this evening, as I wasn't feeling the best, and thought to work more. But I miss it when I skip a day. Maybe it's that it's contemplative, even as it's quite a work out, too.. but of course I think about you.. and I think of this writing I'm doing.. and.. I don't know, I guess I'm always writing a letter to you now.. in my head, I mean. I guess that's what I'm doing.

.. okay, my little kiss, my love.. x.. actually, I'm concerned I'm sounding sad here when, really, I'm glad I've made some headway today, and hopefully I'll still feel that way tomorrow when I read what I wrote, and.. maybe, finally, I can post this part of it, at least.. [some time this holiday weekend]

.. more kisses to you.. xx x.. (you must know that I miss you)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJzIvj9IKcM
FULL SCREEN..

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. I may try to get to get some badly needed sleep tonight, as I've been burning the midnight oil, as they say, with all this writing I've been doing.

.. maybe it's that this section I'm working on needs to give me the confidence that I can battle my way through the rest of this thing.. and so, in finding my way right now, it's to maybe.. (just maybe).. make the rest of it that much easier. [she says hopefully] [though with due caution]

.. anyway, I'm missing you. And no, I didn't make it to our lake, again, but for the same reason.. I'm still a bit under the weather, but still, it afforded me more time to write today. Only it's hot, suddenly--when I thought we'd arrived at just the loveliest, early fall.

.. oh, and I wanted to add that my missing you.. is never far away from my wanting you, too.. (and that's all I should say about it)

.. I'll just send my tender little kiss.. x.. (and maybe just a hint of this pained little ache of mine)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJGzEjCK ... playnext=2
FULL SCREEN..

.. I know I've posted her doing this one before, but it's a kind of miracle almost.. (just for you, my love)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yTKXEtOW ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx x.. xx x x..

[fishfishquaileye]

I did ask this thred end
enuff of yabber yabber

[Violet]

True enuff, f.f., you did ask that this thred end. However, how you could bring this up now after that sublime Sarah Vaughan performance is truly beyond me.

.. but I guess it's not for me to question the ways of a--

actually.. [once again].. I take that back. It is for me to question the ways of a fish, which is pretty much all I do around here.. when I'm not pining, or trying to finish writing something--which, by the way, fishie, could happen a lot more expediently [maybe] if I had some encouragement around here.

Nevertheless, all things--good, bad or indifferent--are likely to end, and so, I'm sure even this thread [which for now seems contingent on my finishing the story I'm writing] will also end at some point.. [at which time, Leonard and I will hopefully blow this ragtag fish joint]

.. alright, fish.. I gotta get back to work--which, by the way, at least involves my attempt at writing in complete, fairly well thought out [for the most part] sentences.. something I think even a sub-fish could aspire to.

later, fish.


edit: I thought f.f. was right [for a change] and so I trimmed some of my "yabber yabber."

[fishfishquaileye]

yabber yabber
fish knows
the difference between
high school
and army
lets hope
the enemy doesnt!!!!

[Violet]

.. you win: you're obviously an afishianado.

.. as for me, I'm retiring from these premises, 'til I hopefully get something worthwhile accomplished today.

later, fish.

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. actually, first: I'm considering using an even smaller font size, with the hope you possess a good pair of reading glasses. Sort of a: "for your eyes only" sort of gesture. [of course, there may be others here who possess the same type of reading glasses.. so.. not too sure this solves very much in the privacy department]

.. I'm actually a bit on the sad side at the moment.. I guess I need sleep. I am hoping to post something story wise tomorrow, so, we'll see. This section I've been working on is real close, at any rate. And the next part of it shouldn't take too long either, since a good deal of it is finished as well. [of course, it's the part that's not finished that I'm worried about, but I'm trying to--once again--look on the bright side]

.. oh, I did manage to go to our lake this evening. The weather is like a steam bath, which isn't terribly pleasant, but the lake is always nice to see. Oh, and I did notice a property name I'd not noticed before:

Rocky Ledge Lodge

[actually, I had that happen to me once, and wound up in the emergency room] [hate to have to admit that]

.. okay, my love.. I guess I'm off to sleep, with the hope I might awake feeling a bit better somehow. My special little kiss.. x.. (and I miss you) (so much)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0P5jV4lH ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx xx.. x x..

[Cate]

love that waits song ... x

[Violet]

.. (hi Cate.. yes, I think it's touching, too)..

.. Leonard, my love.. I.. well, I don't want to complain, exactly, and yet--

.. okay, so.. there I was today, writing away.. thinking this section I'm working on is going quite well.. I'm even adding some new material that I think is reading quite well.. [which doesn't always happen].. and I'm thinking: yeah, I may actually post this thing today.. I may actually actually do it.

.. only......................

people I haven't seen in years [from the city] just showed up. They just showed up. Uninvited. Just showed up. [did I mention THEY JUST SHOWED UP??--I mean, UP HERE.. IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE: JUST.. SHOWED.. UP] [???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????]

I mean, they have these two wonderful children, and that part of it was rather nice, actually.. but, still--oh, and they stayed for, what, FIVE HOURS.. [??????].. I mean, two, maybe, but FIVE???????????.. so.. after that the day was shot. But, what could I say: hey, I'm having this really great writing day, would you mind vamoosing???.. I mean, could I really say that????

[couldn't]

.. so..

Anyway, that's my complaint. Oh, and no lake.. no contemplative moments with you and the water and the trees. Nada.

.. but, I mean, WHAT ARE THE CHANCES???????.. UNEXPECTED VISITORS??????.. UP HERE????????????????????

.. yeah.. so..

.. okay, my love. I know I may have mentioned this before, but I miss you--terribly. I'm not going to dwell on it right now, because it really sucks. It just does. I can't put any sort of good spin on it, at this point. I just plain miss you. And it sucks.

.. anyway, my kiss, my love.. x.. and hopefully tomorrow I can pick up from where I was when the inexplicable happened.. so.. we'll see.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vJHQaTWO ... re=related
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x xx.. x x x.. xx x.. x x..

[Violet]

.. my love, I've been working this afternoon and into the evening.. and I hoped I'd be posting this blasted section tonight, but maybe tomorrow, I'm thinking, since I've added new material, and I'm sort of getting it "fixed" in there. [note my high tech writerly shop talk that I know only you and a few others will comprehend] [oh, and so I don't have to go with the smaller font, that means] [??]

.. oh, I wanted to mention, I dreamt of you the last two nights, only, the first night I awoke, and thought: my god, I just dreamt of you, I need to remember that.. and then I fell back asleep, and when I awoke, I remembered I dreamt of you, only I no longer remembered what the dream was (!)

.. but this morning I awoke very early, and before falling back asleep, I wrote the dream down, and I remember being impressed, since I thought I might have captured something of your humor in this dream.. [let me get that pasted in here now]:

We were kissing, and as we kissed, I softly said: “I love you.”
And you said: “What?”
And I said: “I love you.”
And you said: “I love you too.”
.. and somehow the dream turned into me unearthing this spring green asparagus [???] that was lying flat beneath some soil in a rectangular, earthenware pot or something, and as I did this, you asked: “What do you think love is?”
And I smiled, and said: “Heaven.”
And you said: “You’d think in heaven there’d be some peace, then.”
And I laughed (!)
And awoke.

.. hmm. As to the asparagus, all that comes to mind is that line of Bertolt Brecht's in his and Kurt Weill's Speak Low: Time is old, love is green*.. it's just that the asparagus was such a bright green, as if it were just steamed or something.. and, I mean, I was lifting it out of its dormancy, which seems an allusion to love, especially given your question.

.. but, as to there being no "peace," as far as love goes.. well.. I have to say, I'm a bit miserable just now.. so.. yeah.. not a very peaceful feeling. Then again, in the dream that line made made me laugh--I think because of how you said it, with some ironic humor attached. [which is why I was impressed with the dream when I awoke--dream "screenwriting" wise]

.. anyway, I'm a bit sad, my love.. and it's been raining here for days--with no end in sight, either.. but I thought to share with you my dream.. (of love's green hopefulness?).. x.. (I do hope all is well with you, my angel)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g1VEifmf9Uw
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xxx x.. xxx x.. xx..

much later note: I'm here looking for something, and read this post again.. Only, in looking up the lyrics to this song, I found the word to be 'brief,' not 'green,' as I had originally thought. I DID think 'green' to be an unusual word choice there, and yet I liked that.. so.. now I have to re-calibrate things, as it were.. [sigh]

[Violet]

.. my beloved.. I'm on my way to beddie-byes, but wanted to kiss you good-night.. x.. I feel optimistic, and will see if I feel that way in the morning, but as of now, I'm optimistic about posting this thing.. so, to sleep.. perchance to..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSgwOhGwbhw
FULL SCREEN..
.. xx.. xx x.. xx x x..

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. [and all of you Chinatownshire-ish fans]: here, finally, is the second part of this particular chapter of events. The last part of this Road to Kathmandu segment is on the way, as well.

.. anyway, as I might have mentioned to you before, my love.. I adore you—you're what keeps me going in all of this. And, so.. all my love, and all my kisses.. xx x x.. (oh, and that one very special kiss, too.. x).. (my angel)

.. oh, and, Cate: I will no doubt get around to doing a kind of outline of plot points on the entire thing at some point, but I needed to just post this thing before my insides imploded. [seemed necessary, in other words] I do think, though, that you don't need a lot of background info. to follow this, in any event.

.. oh, I thought I'd put the promo material in here again, since it's been a while since the last posting of this stuff..

.. so.. without further ado..

[MUCH LATER NOTE: as I've been editing this whole "Chinatownshire" series as a book, I felt it time to remove the original posts. I do hope all have enjoyed reading these when they were posted]

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. I'm a bit done in, truth be told. I did the Gotham thing today--even did a little tweaking of that last segment on my blackberry [which was pretty brave, I thought, since I still feel I'm operating with a real handicap with that thing]. Anyway, I'm back, and have the sense that I have to just throw myself at this thing--this story, I mean--as hard as I can, and just battle it through to the end. I think at this point, after I finish this next segment, I need to outline the rest of it, so I at least have an end in sight. Right now it's in sight, but way out of focus.. so.. anyway, that's what's on my mind. I'm trying not to be overwhelmed, in other words, since there's a lot of material I'd like to cover, still.. so.. it gets a bit daunting.

.. anyway, I somehow had you with me today--as happens especially when I'm walking around the city. I don't intend to, but find myself continuing this endless letter to you in my head (!)

.. okay.. my little kiss to you, my love.. x.. been doing a little youtubing tonight (just for you).. this, I've always found pensive and sad and lovely, the way love can be..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=W6hEHSy_J3g
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. xx x x.. xxx x x.. xxx x..

[Violet]

.. Leonard, my love.. I'm having just the strangest day. Not strange, maybe, but varied, I'd say. I was feeling just so giddy earlier. Maybe it's that it was sunny, like yesterday, after days and days of rain. Oh, and I went to our lake early in the day this time.. and even rode with no hands at times.. (like I used to, as a child). It felt so good just to have sun on my skin.. and.. well, when I got back, I had that feeling again of wanting to jump on you and kiss you all over (!).. and then later, well, things got worse in that department. [but that's all I'll say about it]

.. so, anyway, I've been watching old movies, and now I'm off to bed, but thought to give you at least one little kiss good-night (since it seems I can't smother you with them).. x

.. oh, I thought that maybe I was also feeling giddy before since I was relieved that I finally finished another piece of this thing.. [writing wise, I mean].. but I know I have way more to do.. so.. need to sober up, and hop to it. Actually, I did tweak more that last post today [as anyone can notice now, given all the edits].. but it just seems much easier to read it somehow once it's posted, so hopefully there's some improvement in the flow of things.

.. alright, my love.. I hope you've been having some nice weather where you are, as it really really helps I find [now that it's been raining and hurricaning so much]..

.. okay, I hope I can find something lovely for you on youtube.. let's see how I do

[some time later]..

.. well, I've posted this before, but it seems all the more relative now, given what I've been writing. It's probably my favorite Jean Luc Godard film. Certainly these earlier films are his most romantic, even as they are surreally political, as well. [most of the text that's subtitled here is from a Jean Cocteau poem, I believe]

.. oh, by way of a little background: in dystopian Alphaville, language that is not strictly objective, as it were, is gradually disappearing.. but Lemme Caution.. [who I'm now realizing might have some things in common with Agent Longing, come to think of it].. returns there--although I'm not sure what his original mission was supposed to be. What I do remember is that he winds up saving the beautiful Anna Karina heroine from an imprisoned existence without the language to understand what love is.

.. and so, I dedicate this cherished little piece of my cinematic memory to you, my love..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHikpdf8ktM
FULL SCREEN..

.. xx x.. x x.. xxx x.. xx x..