The Heart's Conflicted Lament

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The Heart’s Conflicted Lament

I tried to get over you
But nothing ever works
And now all I ever do
Is think of you until it hurts
I tried to take my mind off you
But you just don’t want to leave
And now all I seem to do
Is get tangled in the webs we weave
Maybe I just enjoy the comfort of sorrow
It’s the only thing I know
I’ll most likely wake up tomorrow
And still have nowhere to go
Or maybe I’m just too afraid
That once I get you out of my mind
That my love for you will fade
And your love for me I never will find

When I think of you
When it hurts to see your face
When I’m not sure what to do
When I can’t get out of this place
When I’m afraid of letting go
Of your hand, your laugh, your eyes
The only thing I know
Is the heart inside me dies
When I just can’t sleep
And when I finally do
The memories I keep
Are the dreams I have of you
When I have no appetite
When I can’t function with denial
I hope to god I might
Just once more see your smile

Do I tell you how I feel and risk losing you again?
Or do I hide it all away just to keep you as a friend?